manpower christmas dinner

1. addy and sam (the sales director)
2. iain (the asia pac director) and addy
he like damn buei song to give me the prize hor?
3. asean and korea manpower group!

3m - mini-movie marathon

nightatthemuseum
@goldenvillagemarina
with.chrisandkenneth
feeling.cute

though it is just another typical ben stiller movie, it fits into the holiday mood perfectly..lots of laugh-out-loud and feel good moments..features owen wilson and robin williams as well..nice! :)

deathnote2:thelastname
@goldenvillagemarina
with.chris,kenneth and alex
feeling.contented

i was curious how death note would end in the movie having known the actual ending for the manga..and i'm glad to say that while part 2 strays a little from the original storyline, the overall plot still holds together well..also despite having a different ending, the show still provides a satisfactory closure..

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thanks for the tie jinxy..really lovely choice of colour babe! :)

have yourself a merry little christmas

christmas eve
lunch with jessica, yili, hongli and yuqian at waraku japanese restaurant in marina square..the third time i've been to the restaurant..while i don't claim to be a jap food expert, the food there is pretty nice (much tastier than sakae sushi..yeah lots of people will say "duh!"..duh!) and at an affordable price as well..after lunch we had our christmas gift exchange! i got a handphone strap, a handphone holder, a moo-moo bottle and a box of maltesers..not a bad return though the choice of purple for the handphone strap amused jess and myself highly! :P


after lunch we went for a few rounds of pool before calling it a day at 5pm..on our way back, yili's handphone got pinched, which kind of took the shine off an otherwise quite fine day out..

christmas day - midnight mass at the church of the holy trinity
really lovely! (aside from the fact that i had my brother stoning beside me throughout the service!)..it's first time in years that i've enjoyed the christmas midnight mass..i think it helped that Father John Bosco was presiding over the mass..he just has that charisma and presence to attract and then hold on to your attention..for the homily, he spoke of gifts; how one gives and receives, how we are all gifts from God and how we can be gifts to God..as a bonus, he sang "have yourself a merry little christmas" at the end of his homily, as a gift to all in attendance..while it was not exactly (in his own words) "singapore idol" material, i am sure his sincerity touched more than a few hearts this morning..it certainly warmed my heart..suddenly all my loneliness and fears just disappeared..and christmas is alive again..

have yourself a merry little christmas
let your heart be light
from now on, our troubles will be out of sight

have yourself a merry little christmas
make the yuletide gay
from now on, our troubles will be miles away

here we are, as in olden days
happy golden days of yore
faithful friends who are dear to us
gather near to us once more

through the years, we all will be together
if the fates allow
hang a shining star above the highest bough
and have yourself a merry little christmas now

thank you, God..
thank you, Jesus..
and thank you, Father John Bosco..

merry christmas to one and all!
may all your christmas dreams and wishes come true!

ju hua tai

curseofthegoldenflower
@goldenvillageplazasingapura
with.chrisandkenneth
feeling.groggified

was eagerly anticipating this because i saw (saw..not read!) on the straits times that it was given 4.5 stars out of 5..and i said to myself "should be good..not that many chinese shows surpass the 3 stars barrier!"..oh how wrong i was..the plot was senseless at times and just plain ridiculous at other times..but if you can look past the point of it all, the visuals were really quite a sight to behold..thankfully chow yun fatt and gong li's respective portrayal of the emperor and empress at least saved the show some credit..maybe it's the story and maybe it's the middle of the night but i just couldn't bring myself to appreciate this..

ikea and courts

went to the new ikea in tampines (finally!) today with gabriel..it is as they say "HUGE"! my mission was to buy a computer table for my mum (as well as any other cute stuff that can be used as cheap christmas presents :P)..the place was packed for a weekday..lots of aunties and kids..but interestingly, there were no queues at the cashiers! what we soon realise is despite it's gi-normous physique, the range of products is basically the same as the other ikea in alexandra road..well ok the walkways are wider and the cafe is bigger but for someone looking for a computer table, i wasn't too impressed with what i had to choose from..i ended up buying a very basic one for my mum and a cd case for myself..hey it's ikea, you can't leave without buying anything! and if you were wondering what happened to my infamous obsession with ikea batteries..well, i got my colleague to buy two packs for me the previous week already! :P

after ikea, we went over to the also newly opened courts megastore..i tell you, that place is a market! the design of the store itself was quite a mess..we entered at the first level only to realise that you couldn't go upstairs unless you made a big round back to the main entrance..even then, you have got to start all the way at the third level and make your way down! ok, that was probably a marketing ploy..but the ground floor..products strewn all over the floor, a salesman on the microphone shouting out bargain products, loud music and all the uncles and aunties removing items out of boxes and then simply chucking them aside..like a bladdy wet market! not surprisingly, gabriel and i found an empty dopod box with the handset amiss! i mean, who will suspect when almost everyone (and i mean literally everyone!) is just taking products out of their boxes to inspect..i am sure there are many more empty boxes lying around without their items in them..

two megastores side by side but such a contrast in image..courts with its packed, narrow spaces and haphazard arrangements just oozes of shoddiness..on the other hand, ikea with its wide aisles and tidily organised furnitures reflects class and simplicity..i'm probably biased..afterall, it's ikea, you just don't leave without buying anything!

1st

attended my 1st manpower company dinner this evening at my secret garden near bugis..tucked away in a small compound behind nanyang academy of fine arts, it has a really lovely intimate ambience..the service was reasonable enough without being really great..the food though is a disappointment; i had lobster bisque, portabello mushroom, grilled chicken and tiramisu..most of which were just ordinary..

despite that, i still had quite a night! seeing my colleagues after four days away from office was great..how i've missed them! but the icing on the cake must be that i took the 1st prize in the lucky draw! haha..300 buckeroos taka vouchers! my first lucky draw win EVER and it's the 1st prize! woah woah woah! but ar..can i ask..what exactly can you buy at takashimaya??? :|

for now it's back to reality and reality is that i have to take a test in camp tomorrow morning..brrrr!

ten

i like the number 10. 10 as in perfect 10 (not the radio station). 10 as in teddy sheringham (former tottenham hotspur player). 10 as in a nice round number. 10 tonight is the number of christmas cards i have written. 10 is the number of poems i've penned for the cards - unique to each card. i'd like to send more christmas cards out but for now i'll just leave it at that. 10.

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your words slapped me across the face - in a good sense. i needed that wake up call. thank you.

it constantly amazes me the impact that my words can sometimes have on others..like ginny (my superior-to-be) aptly put it, the best counsellors find it the hardest to accept advice..i can't agree more..

which reminds me..something i have not mentioned here before..
there is someone i'd like to thank (she knows who she is)..
thank you for being there for me in that middle of the night..even if it was only to listen to me cry..i am very very grateful..

2days.2movies

jamesbondcasinoroyale
@plazasingapura
withkennethandjingxian
feelingnotsogood
the action sequences were cool enough but the plot (what plot?!) was too complicated and the ending was a letdown..left me with a "huh?" feeling at the end..apparently, i wasn't the only one..

happyfeet
@toapayoh
withnooneelse
feelingnotsogood
not really spectacular animation and not a very well put together storyline..had a few nice scenes but main saving grace for me were the five amigos..they were irritatingly funny! the little penguins were really adorable though! wished i could take them home! :P

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christmas cards lying in my room..really need to start on them..soon!

it's all about the $$$

i am so bladdy broke..this is the outcome of..

1) too many cds - approx. $300
2) a new nokia n73 - $300
3) a new asus notebook - $2000
4) pending - holiday in january (but no kakis..sianz..) - ???
5) pending - muse concert in singapore!! (should i?) - $85

and i haven't even started buying presents yet! oh noooo..how la how?

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just the other day, a sudden thought, i imagined you with permed hair and i imagined you saying "oh my god!" and it made me laugh..you still amuse me miss ning..

just don't tell me you really permed your hair!!!

grown-up christmas list

do you remember me?
i sat upon your knee
i wrote to you with childhood fantasies
well i'm all grown up now
can you still help somehow
i'm not a child but my heart still can dream

so here's my lifelong wish
my grown-up christmas list
not for myself but for a world in need

no more lives torn apart
that wars will never start
and time will heal all hearts
every man would have a friend
that right will always win
and love will never end
this is my grown-up christmas list...
- michael buble

shwwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettt..it's so lovely isn't it?

hai..

walk on

cheryl asked me today which would i choose, to love or to be loved? initial reaction for me will be "to love" unconditionally and whole-heartedly..but when i think of it..whatever i may say, this answer will change over time in a way or another to "to be loved"..because it is human nature and we are selfish creatures..we take more than we give..and likewise we love almost always in hope of being loved in return..i know i am guilty of that..

i really miss the feeling of pampering someone..even though it might have been lonely shopping alone sometimes..it made me happy to know you would smile when you received whatever i got..whether you liked it or not, that's another matter! you can't do it with friends can you? i mean you can buy your friends stuff once or twice, but if you did that regularly, your friends'd tell you off "i'm not your girlfriend leh! you siao ar?" or think you're being gay (depending on their gender)..i know i'd freak out if a friend kept getting me gifts, nice as it may sound!

hai..i miss the feeling of sneaking a little snuggle and the closeness of a hug..

christmas is coming..i think it is high time to cheer up..even if i cannot attain the stage of "merriness"..though i do not honestly expect to receive any gifts this year..well because i've not been a really good boy that's why!

what would your answer be then? to love or to be loved?

and if the darkness is to keep us apart
and if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
and if your glass heart should crack
and for a second you turn back
oh no be strong..

and i know it aches
how your heart it breaks
you can only take so much
walk on..

you've got to leave it behind..
- u2

snippets

1. my dad's birthday at soup restaurant in changi airport terminal 2
- 12 november 2006


2. no "laughing" matter
- the definition of keke

- commonly used by men who pretend to be cute Japanese children on the internet

Player2: llolz pnwned keke
Player3: omg stop it :((((((

- a vagina, the women's reproductive organ

a girl has a keke and a boy has a peepee.

more definitions on urban dictionary, here!

3. my decision

after much contemplation, i've decided to take up the position with manpower singapore over the one offered by the fullerton. it was tough considering that the fullerton had stronger branding and will definitely make my resume look more impressive. but i made my decision based on the learning opportunities that will be available to me and manpower's potential. whatever it is, i'm determined to make this decision the right one! :)

4. jarvis




click here for a review on nme.




5. dim sum dollies

went for the dim sum dollies on friday evening with karen, maurice and christine. still not as good as the first two installments of the dim sum dollies. the appearance of the parking pontianaks was a real good laugh though! :)

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shifting through boxes
looking through the past
relationships that didn't make it
friendships that did not last
familiar names
but so many lost along the way
letters, christmas cards
they once remembered my birthday
of those who remain
we're no longer that close
the innocence of yesteryears
is but a friendly ghost
words betray us
we were supposed to stick together
but we drifted apart
even in perfect weather
but that's just life
bits and pieces we're left with
and if we retaliate
we lose our belief
every envelope recreates
another street in memory lane
even if i could turn back time
i know, nothing would have changed

AD (14th july 2002)

even though we did not reach forever..thank you for once loving me with all your heart..i promise to you that we will move on..and whatever the future holds, only the future knows..just know this, where so many have failed, we have managed to stick together throughout all this time, as lovers and as friends..and i am always grateful and blessed for your companionship! :)

thank you..

shine on

please don't cry
you know i'm leaving here tonight
before i go i want you to know
that there will always be a light

and if the moon had to runaway
and all the stars didn't wanna play
don't waste the sun on a rainy day
the wind will soon blow it all away, ya

so many times i planned
to be much more than who i am
and if i let you down
i will follow you 'round until you understand

that if the moon had to runaway
and all the stars didn't wanna play
don't waste the sun on a rainy day
the wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya

when the days all feel the same
don't feel the cold or wind or rain
everything will be okay
we will meet again one day
and i will shine on, for everyone
- jet

silent all these years..

from hello friend to affectionate wifey
from a simple goodbye to "will you miss me?"
it all sounds too surreal for it to be true
he didn't believe it and neither should you!
from occasional to nightly talks
but it was difficult getting her out, even for a walk
he wasn't allowed to call her at home
unless of course she was standing by the telephone..

it seems just like yesterday..but it cannot be..
because this happened more than 5 years ago now!
of course, these days she doesn't need to stand by the telephone!
and in case you're wondering, we were still on pagers back then!
yes, that's how long it has been..
how quietly time has flown us by..

can't sleep..

was it always wrong from the start?

move on addy..or you'll get left behind..

but the tears keep on falling..

wah lao eh!

one whole year and 100 over resumes later..not a single interview for any marketing position..temporary, contract, permanent, administrator, assistant, executive..nothing!

now..TWO permanent marketing job OFFERS! yes..not even interviews..OFFERS! and the best part is i did not send out resume for either!

how la how?

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sometimes i miss you..other times, i just turn and look the other way..

job street (dot) com

there's a little spring in my little step
a little dance and a tappity tap
a new destination to fly my flag
a new adventure plotted on the map
but i hold the celebrations, i dare not be too glad
until the day the ink dries and it becomes fact
- addy (10 november 2006)

to be continued..

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the following is taken from an advertisement..

are you ready to fight at the frontiers of technology?
more like "are you ready to fight AGAINST the frontiers of technology!"

masters of technology
given 386 computers, you are expected to produce pentium results, of course you will grow to be a master of technology! it is all in "the plan" i tell you!

cutting edge talent
did i ever mention that the tools and equipment used are mostly at least 10 years old? sorry i exaggerate, some are at least 20 years old! as the saying goes, the older you are, the wiser..not so sure if it applies to "sharpness" though!

precise and self assured
precise in timing our breakfast, lunch and tea breaks and self assured enough not to get caught!

it's a career like nothing on earth
it sure is out of this world alright!

indigestion

i am so disoriented these days, it's so not funny..i want to do something but i stop myself..i want to express my anger but i stop myself..i want to let it out but i stop myself..and i just end up being so frustrated that there is no outlet..all because as others keep telling me that i'm too nice and soft hearted..

i don't want to be this way anymore!!! aaaaahhh..hai..

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an interesting conversation with my spw nuer:

a dot . says: and i'm from planet forever eighteen!!
jasmango duckie! says: you are forever 18, come to think of it
a dot . says: huh? why do you say that?
jasmango duckie! says: i dunno.. you exude a youthful exuberance
a dot . says: haha i do? are you saying i am childish?
jasmango duckie! says: nope
jasmango duckie! says: you're just forever 18

in case you're wondering..this conversation started with us discussing which planet raymond was from! lol..

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i've been chatting quite a bit with my korean colleague recently..no, i do not speak korean..she speaks english! :P which reminds me, i should really stop referring to her as "korean colleague"..makes her sound like an anonymous! my bad..it's just that she has recently "grown" her name so it's rather long and tedious to pronounce..anyway it's..regina zoe hammie moon..told you it was long! sometimes i address her in short form "rzhm" which makes her sound mysterious like some secret agent..other times i just call her "silly"! oh and did i mention that she is really nice? no? well, she is really nice :)


she reads this by the way, so i had to say that! :P

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jinxisaurus craving penguin:
rar! -bites-
jinxisaurus:
-_- waasssssuuuuuppppp!

q: what do you call a really flustered and depressed jinxisaurus?
a: a jinxisaurus vex!
it's really not funny ar? :(

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all day i'm doing fine
cos there are things to pass the time
smoke a cig and drink some tea
watch a programme on tv
i just don't care where you are now
cos i'm sorted out, and how
i've got it all set up you see
but when i close my eyes it happens to me
you're a nightmare
and you've made it all wrong
you're a nightmare to me
oh oh you're a nightmare
and i just can't see
why you should keep on happening to me
- pulp

write the blog!

here is the story about THE MOST AWESOME SENSE OF DEJA VU EVER as experienced by addy..it was supposed to be a brand new blog entry..but reading the first lines, he know he saw this before..somehow he knew what the entry was about..who it was about..and how it ended without even reading it through..truly amazing..

a witness who wished to be known only as "jinxy" had this to say when interviewed,

"wah liao!"
when pressed for further comments, she could only offer a

"FREAKY!"
before she turned green (as a dinosaur) with shock..
and that was the story about THE MOST AWESOME SENSE OF DEJA VU EVER!

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this blog entry was kindly brought to you by jinxisaurus "rar!"

writer's blog

wanted to blog something..but i got a block..

sianz..

anyway, just something my korea colleague mentioned to me..damn cute..
"you are not supposed to eat or drink along the streets in singapore"
cute right? heh..it amused me :)

softie

and i nearly cried..

and i'm ready to take a chance again
ready to put my love on the line with you..
- barry manilow

forever eighteen

had a nice time out last night with ling and leen..for dinner, we went to shashlik restaurant in far east shopping centre where they served russian cuisine..don't be fooled by the "lok kok" exterior of the restaurant or the dimly lit interior or the elderly waiters and waitresses..to get a seat, you have to reserve wan ok! after scrutinising the menu (wondering which ones sounded better!), we ordered the shashlik beef thingy (ling), an ikan fish thingy (leen) and a garlic steak thingy (addy)..while the service is not fantastic (they are not outright rude la..just not very polite) and the portion small, the food was nice and quite reasonably priced..they also had this flaming dessert which was supposedly quite popular but when we last checked, there wasn't anything set on fire that night. oh well.

"lok kok" exterior of shaslik restaurant
fierce looking menu!

thereafter, we went to big-o for dessert cuz yaling was still hungry..i got this mudpie called "the beast"..the banana fudge part is really quite shiok man! though it was a short dinner session, it was a really nice catch up for us three..not that we are some long lost friends la! :P

leen: thanks for the nike bag and the really really cool card! :) you do not look like a maid la!

ling: thanks for the baby blues book! :) why is it somehow familiar eh? haha..

addy: i got myself a new crumpler bag too! :) my "maid"'s recommendation!

but seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for the lovely evening, the presents, your constant encouragement and everything else! it's been a really tough year but it would have been so much tougher without you guys! :)

afterall..

skeptical but hopeful..

flashes of brilliance

yesterday:

1. first birthday greeting from (surprise surprise) shiqin at 1.08am!
whom i've known for years but have hardly met up with! really nice..

2. my dad giving me a shirt from g2000 for a present!
not the best colour..but i really appreciate the effort..

3. seafood at serangoon gardens and then milkshakes at happy days cafe with kenneth and jingxian!
jinx had to postpone her hall meeting just for it as well..thanks babe!

4.

today:

5. clear blue skies
feel like going skydiving

6. release of pulp's john peel sessions
cool!

a decade of music

my most able companion for the past ten odd years..through the easy and difficult times..through my joy and depression..through happiness and sadness..a friend for all seasons..i'm sorry i tattoo-ed you against your will and i'm sorry for making you play backstreet boys, britney spears and the sort..rest in peace my friend..live forever!

now that i'm in the mood, let me just do a brief recollection of my sinful obsession..

1. first cd ever bought:
ukelele greatest hits from bedok central (i threw it away i think!)..for the record, one of the rare cds (the one i remember at least!) still existing in my collection today from that infancy stage is oasis' (what's the story) morning glory?..that, and the backstreet boys' debut album..yes, i still have that too!

2. most frequently listened to genre:
u.k. indie

3. best concert attended so far:
coldplay (and travis) and coldplay (again)!

4. favourite solo artist:
tommy page..yeah i know..sucker..

5. all time favourite song:
oasis - champagne supernova..almost therapeutic effect when put on repeat and play it loud when in a really really lousy mood..inspirational when in a really really good mood..did i mention that it is quite a really really good song? it is you know?

6. most underrated band:
mansun and embrace..they have some really good stuff but i don't think they are given enough credit..if i had to cut it to one, i'd say mansun because i'm listening to them now and they are also less likely to appear on those britband and rock compilations!

7. favourite band:
just a decade and my cd collection has surpassed the millenium mark..from coldplay to radiohead to ash to feeder to oasis to blur to muse to so many others..but the band that still stands out for me is pulp..look out for jarvis' new album due in november!

i could go on and on and on about the music i like but this is basically it in a cd single format with a few extra bonus tracks..

cheers!

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so this is it..my birthday post..no mushy "thank you"s..no overly ambitious wishes..just an entry on a topic close to heart. that is not to say, i do not appreciate the thoughts and the many birthday greetings i got. i do, but how do you respond to "happy birthday" when you are not truly happy? "thank you"? but friends who have known me a long time will know that i am not person to say things i do not really feel..and somehow sending "thanks but i'm not really happy" just does not cut it either..so instead, i keep my peace and (as we say in church) my peace i give to you. i hope you can understand and i apologise for my rudeness..but that is all you will get from me - an apology. no "thank you"..

bring your sunshine to me
oh electric man..
- mansun
thanks kenneth for last night..i needed that badly..

re-activated

sorry for the inconvenience everyone! apparently my kor was in such a lousy mood last night he scared the server silly! think he male pms man..crazy bugger! anyway, booking lines are now re-opened again! here is the updated booking list..

24 Oct 2006 (tue):
2pm - ? : lunch with cheryl
4pm (estimated) onwards : available slot

25 Oct 2006 (wed):
? - 5pm : available slot
5pm onwards: unavailable

26 Oct 2006 (thu):
8.30pm - 6pm : work
6pm onwards : unavailable (under consideration)

27 Oct 2006 (fri):
8.30pm - 6pm : work
6pm onwards : available slot

28 Oct 2006 (sat):
whole day : available slot (pending confirmation)

29 Oct 2006 (sun):
11am - 12pm: church
4pm - 7pm: footie
7.30 onwards: available slot

* due to "space" limitations, group bookings of 4 and above are highly discouraged.

remember, you can book through email or phone..bookings are on a first come first serve basis and pending approval from the committee (he and me! hehe..)he better behave this time round (as in kor not the server!)..or i'll kick him in the nuts! hmm..then..i won't have my cute little nieces and nephews! -gasp- nevermind, i'll think of elsewhere to kick him..anyway, book now! :)

- addlyn

appeal

please pray for karen's aunt betty who is in hospital, in critical condition..if you do not pray, just make a wish..

wherever i may be

gatekeeper: are you sure about this?
addy: yes.
gatekeeper: won't you be lonely?
addy: already there.
gatekeeper: how about text messages?
addy: depending on how long they are.
gatekeeper: well i don't know..usually 13 letters long with a space in the middle..
addy: that's a pretty unlucky number don't you think?
gatekeeper: i suppose so..but what do you think?
addy: hmm..
gatekeeper: they may mean well you know?
addy: bar them.
gatekeeper: you sure? not even a "thank you"? i could set up an auto-reply service if you want. free of charge.
addy: no..just bar them.
gatekeeper: if you say so.. -makes a note- how about emails?
addy: what about them?
gatekeeper: well some will send it through email.
addy: trash them.
gatekeeper: you can't be serious?
addy: -shrugs-
gatekeeper: ok..you are serious.
addy: most likely. yes.
gatekeeper: ok then..any last request? computer? food? something to read?
addy: some music would be good.
gatekeeper: ok.. -makes another note- just music?
addy: and maybe my penguin.
gatekeeper: -raises eyebrow and makes another note- and?
addy: that's it.
gatekeeper: ok -checks notebook- some music and urm..the penguin.
addy: yep.
gatekeeper: last chance to back out.
addy: -shakes head-
gatekeeper: you don't talk much do you?
addy: -shrugs-
gatekeeper: you are crap.
addy: i know.
gatekeeper: -curses under his breath- ok..you may pass. have a good trip.
addy: yeah whatever.

togetherness

not together..
but feeling together..

together we're invincible

do i attract people easily? am i super approachable when you get to know me? funny, this was what my interviewer told me today..that while most guys go to interviews rigid and stern, i am directly the opposite - friendly and chatty..in fact, she went as far as saying that i was probably one of the most friendly interviewees she has had and would hire me solely based on my character if only..i had showed more keen-ness for an administrative role..

oh well..nice to know that but she probably says that to most of the other interviewees as well..

i went on a shopping spree after that!

1) a new shirt for work (nice and bright and pinky stripey!)
2) a dvd (which i'd probably end up not watching unless someone watches it with me) and
3) four cds

overall, it was a pretty good day and nothing is going to spoil it! yes i am that determined..but hey..it is just three and a half more hours right?

during the struggle they will pull us down
but please, please let's use this chance to turn things around
and tonight we can truly say
together we're invincible
- muse

cheer up!

it's sad to see kor so withdrawn these days..come home only walk straight into the room and close door..talk to him only can get a nod of the head or shake of the head..at best, maybe can get a "okay" out of him..so normal conversation will go something like this..

me: you just got home ar?
kor: -nod head-
me: oorh..how's work?
kor: okay
me: very sian is it?
kor: -nod head-
me: no other job meh?
kor: -shake head-

see what i mean? very hard leh..don't know what's wrong with him also..anyway kor cheer up! yesterday mei mei went shopping for you leh! got you your favourite team's jersey..i don't find it nice at all..quite ugly actually but you like it can liaoz! hehe..and here's another something for you to make you smile!

eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen twenty-seven eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen
FOREVER
EIGHTEEN!
hehehe..nice nice right? if nice must cheer up k? :)

- addlyn

my big mouth

kor tells me that two people told him today that they were surprised to see him so bad tempered and moody these days..but hor..not surprising to me leh..he at home also always lock himself in the room and don't really talk wat..you mean he very cheery and fun to be with all the time meh? now it is my turn to be surprised ah!

anyway, today is a bad day for me also la..

i told you that i really like you leh..but you didn't reply me..i think that maybe you hate me now..am i really really really not pretty enough?

hai..don't want to talk about it already..sianz..

- addlyn

ken says "nnh"

did you know that when you combine kenneth and his favourite exclamation it sounds reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaallly bad? you try it now..repeat after me..

"ken.. ..nnh"
a bit faster now..
"ken.. nnh"
ok..now say it super fast!
"ken nnh"

so crude rite?? hai..ken ken..why you so vulgar? nabei..teach me such bad things..

- addlyn

she's so fat

just got home..very tired leh..i tell you ar..got this classmate of mine..really irritating..keep snacking and snacking in class..then eat cannot eat quietly..make so much noise..then got so much complaints somemore..ask her for help is like want her life like that..but like what can i do with her life right? keep telling us how she has so much to do and no time to help us..but then during break she always sneak off to buy food or shoes..so fat and still keep eating, no wonder she keeps having to change her sandals and shoes la..i pity them leh..got to take such a weight every day..hai..every day see her also sian..try to close one eye but she too big, still can see her..close both eyes, still can hear her munching and complaining..hoooooooooooooooooooow? so sian leh..heard my kor has someone similar in his workplace..think i will ask him for advice! hehehe..ok..still got my assignments to rush *#&%&!*@($)..talk another time!

- addlyn

you completed me

hello everyone! my kor says that he wants to take a break from blogging so..guess who is the caretaker? -beamz- muahahaha..but i only got the job on one condition..that is that i publish this next poem of his..he said that it was meant for someone special but now that it has no more meaning, it just sounds cheesy..stale cheese he said..but it's quite sweet wat..you read it and see..

"you complete me"

you complete me
in every way
you amaze me
and colour my days
you make me smile
till my cheeks hurt
but it's all worth it
with you as a perk
you give me hope
and i feel alive
my tears freeze
and my fears subside
you're in every thought
and every word i say
it's true, you complete me
in every unimaginable way

addy (17th january 2006)

sweet rite? if i was his gf ar, i think i will swoon over the moon ar..but i'm his sister..and i still think it's sweet! definitely not like smelly stale cheese..

speaking of smelly, i still haven't suan zhang with him for not offering me any goodwood park durian mooncake ar! keep everything for himself and his jinxy..kaoz..what sort of brother rite? really zhong she qing mei mei ar! ok..i should stop suaning him since he is quite down also..kor, so hor do i complete you too? - addlyn

amazing haze

God forgive them..
those ignorant, thoughtless, penniless and brainless people..who turn your grace into haze..

..and it goes something like this..

amazing haze
you're so fucked up
a thousand burning trees

you spoil the air
that we all breathe
please go so that we can live

Amen

untitled

you know what?
i love you


i made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me?

mooncakes

these are delightfully sinful but..
like who cares eh jinxy? ;P

highly recommended for all durian lovers!

resuming normal service

i realise i have been writing a lot but i haven't been writing much..i'm not exactly in perfect working order..but i'm not exactly that depressed anymore..people who come out with me or talk to me think that there is nothing wrong with me..still smiling, still making lame remarks, still talking rubbish..how wrong they are..i guess it comes with the impression i give others..my close friends will know that i am actually a very emotional person who is not afraid to express whatever i feel..and not just some happy-go-lucky, crap-talking, one-man-circus act that i know i sometimes can be..this is one of the rare occasions in life i suppose..that it feels like no one knows me..not even myself..mainly because i don't really know how to put all these emotions into words..my thoughts are like a million pieces jigsaw puzzle and all the pieces look the same..no i am not alright..but i am okay..

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today:

finally did some sports this morning..no thanks to my sunday footie being cancelled last week and this week as well! it's been quite a long time since i last played tennis..didn't have any momentum at all and my shots were so weak and wayward..it was a good workout though..at least i could let out some frustration on the court! supposed to attend a friend's house warming later, but looking at the weather, i think not..

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yesterday:

last day at the takashimaya office..we are moving to 79 anson road..no more lunch time walk along orchard road! hai..
i am so going to miss my little corner..

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the day before yesterday:

desperately needed company for dinner..i just couldn't take the strain anymore and i needed someone to talk to..thankfully aileen was free that evening..i basically poured out all my confusion to her on our taxi ride..it didn't solve anything but it sure felt a lot better..kenneth and chris then met us afterwards for dinner at bedok 85 but that is irrelevent..

leenie..thanks for being there when i needed someone..and no..you're not such a lousy advisor :)

as he faced the sun he cast no shadow
- oasis

"thank you"
to you who cared..
--,'-@

you won't see me cry..



look at the stars
look how they shine for you
and everything you do
yeah they were all yellow..

once upon a rainy monday morning..

i have been feeling really down these days..just sudden bursts of depression..over what? over i don't know..there is no real certainty for me to pinpoint why this is even happening..but whilst i'm at it, i'd like to get some things off my chest..

i'm sorry ah gong..i'm sorry i wasn't there for you during your final days..you have always taken care of me the best you knew..and yet in your last hours and days after you've passed, i wasn't there for you..i'm feel so ungrateful..i hope heaven has a translator so that you will know what i'm saying..i love you..

i'm sorry kare-bear..i'm sorry things turned out the way they have..i know you will say it wasn't really anyone's fault..but i could have been more understanding and less demanding..funny how it was only afterwards that we began spending more constructive time together and how i started going to church regularly..i guess one can say that everything that have happened since february are like little blessings in disguise..it feels weird sometimes..like we haven't really broken out of our little routines with each other..but i'm really really glad and blessed at the same time that we've found someone else within each other..

i'm sorry ms ning..i'm sorry that you feel that way about me..no matter what i hope that you're happier..

i'm sorry jinxy..i'm sorry that i do not have enough love, energy or courage at this moment..thank you for taking time out to care though..i really appreciate that..

lastly, sorry to anyone else i've not treated well enough or have neglected..i am too emotional, too weak and too not-myself anymore..sad songs get me really down..over what? over i don't know..and if you see me, don't ask me why? like i've said before, i have nothing to say..

so good morning to you..and good night to the world..sweet dreams..

lots of love,
hugs,
and kisses,
addy

i just need a hug..

wonder

sometimes, i wonder..too..

a penny for your thoughts..

"just a penny?" i ask..

yeah..actions speak louder than words..words speak louder than a mumble..a mumble is louder than your thoughts..and as we can't do much with your thoughts unless we decipher them which is an extremely tedious process..we are just paying out a penny for each..

"hmm.."

you can try selling them to cash converters and see if they pay more..

"deal! a penny it is then!

don't let them make you feel small
with their hands like guns at your head
they'll claw but they'll never win
if you let wonder in..
- embrace

even if you cannot hear my voice..i'll be right beside you dear..

snow patrol - run (live at glastonbury 2004)

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i wish i could tell you, of all the down i'm feeling now..but you won't know..i have nothing to say..

white colourless envelopes

my colleagues passed me a whole bunch of envelopes while clearing the office cupboards "for you to send letters to girlfriend"..no girlfriend..and besides, i usually fold my own colourful little envelopes..uneven, out of proportions, ugly little envelopes just like a kindergarten kid's origami..

would you love me more if i grew up?

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mic check..

is this on?

testing 1 2 3..

ok..

"addy will be right back after a short commercial break!"

i really don't feel like talking anymore..

light up, light up
as if you have a choice
even if you cannot hear my voice
i'll be right beside you dear..
- snow patrol

lost in a crowd

white fluffy clouds..
faceless..nameless..

strangers..

i am lost in them..
now i am one of them..
faceless..nameless..

strangers..

if i lay here, if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
- snow patrol

(for you who care..
because you love it too..)

darkness to light

who do i love?
what do i want?
am i happy?

que sara sara..
et cetera et cetera..

darkness will turn into light..
when light comes..
i'll be..
out of sight..

1 2 3 4 5

...once i caught a fish alive 6 7 8 9 10 then i let it go again "why did you let it go?" "because it bit me so!" "which part of you did it bite?" "this part of me deep inside."

first star i see tonight..

oh how i wish..how i might..

have the wish..
i wish tonight..

sorry.. if i intruded..

weird..

things shouldn't be so complicated..

blue monday..

unmotivated..

uninspired..
i think i'm falling into depression again..

has the world gone on without me?

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just want to say..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NERDY-O BRO!!

and i don't want the world to see me
cuz i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's meant to be broken
i just want you to know who i am..
- the goo goo dolls

i bet you look good on the dancefloor..

i can't believe it..i woke up at 2pm!! and there i was always teasing alex and jinx about their hours! anyway, i only got to sleep around 4am this morning..reason being yes, i finally relented and went mos with cheryl and gabriel..sad to say, it was not the experience i was expecting exactly..the place was way too crowded and the dance areas way too small..people were vibrating more than dancing! and the music, gosh, don't even get me started on the music..the funny thing was when cheryl's friend commented that she preferred smoove (the r&b room) to 54 (the retro room) because the music they played in 54 was always the same..i was quite tempted to tell her that r&b and hip-hop ain't much better..almost every single song has the same beat and most of their melodies (if and when there was a melody!) sounded the same anyway! the only thing which i missed out on was going to the main arena where mos' signature sound was created - the house music..oh well..though i did not really enjoy it that much, i would not say that it was a wasted trip..more of an eye opener i guess..the only time i went to the dancefloor to "vibrate" was when new order's "true faith" came on! now that is a cool song! so you want me to hit the dancefloor? easy..play some better music dj!

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got a new haircut on thursday..this is how i look like now..nice?

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more pictures from that (yes, your eyes are fine..it's "that" in italics! :P) time in sentosa..

i feel so extraordinary
something's got a hold on me
i get this feeling i'm in motion
a certain sense of liberty..
- new order

did you know..

that when you search "shifting through times" on google, my blog is the first link that comes up?


cool rite? :P

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found these on youtube..enjoy!


muse - can't take my eyes off you


jay chou - qian li zi wai (featuring fei yu qing)

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meeting cheryl and gab after work for dinner..cheryl jio-ing me to mos with her girl friends to "get to know more people"..tempted, but not really keen..should i?

i'm just a killer for your love..
- blur

i am just..

in a very bad mood..

think it's the waking up at 6.30am everyday..

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will people take those irritating tortoises off their damn msn nicks? if they want to pay tribute to steve irwin..just go on a bbq stingray diet 3 meals a day for the next 3 months until three quaters of the world stingray population are wiped out..that should teach those rays a lesson! and honestly, just between you and me..i doubt rays even have access to a computer much less msn to care about your tortoises! unless you're talking about raymond..but then raymond is a nice guy, he won't sting!

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my week ahead..

wed: singapore v china match at the national stadium with karen and my rsaf colleagues..

fri: dinner then chill out with cheryl and gabriel..

i am so going broke..

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news flash:

due to overdemand, jinxy's blog has closed down until further notice..certain insider sources say that she is looking into franchising her jinxified brand to expand operations and to have an even spread of the gossip; so that it does not appear that she eats alot! interested parties can call 1800-JINXIFY (5463493) (24hrs toll-free) for more information on franchising opportunities!

with you i feel the other half of my heartbeat
i'm complete..
- paris hilton

neighbourly love..

in response to jinxy's post here, here and here..i'd like to issue a public warning to anyone who wants to try this at home or in the hall or anywhere in singapore! don't anyhow "suka suka chin chin chai chai" lie naked on the floor ar..

1) if your neighbour have bionic eyes (or have bino) and happen to see you, he/ she can report you to the police! usually it's because they sacrifice their precious time, strain their eyes to watch you but before they "song", you put your clothes back on..make them dulan..so what do they do? report you for indecent exposure! no decency to expose long enough! or

2) if your neighbour have a camera, he/ she will take pictures or video tape you and distribute online and call it "Singapore Girl lying naked on the floor"..apparently, from past occurrences, such pictures/ clips are hotter property than playboy cover girls! nevermind that your neighbour will get caught by the police this time, you still must tio counselling! how can? i mean, how do you answer questions like "why were you lying naked on the floor? no money to buy clothes sibo? more 'liang' (cooling) sibo?"..hey! no one questioned natalie imbruglia when she sang it right?

so boys and girls, ignore this warning at your own risk..because whether you are torn, dick or hairy, your neighbour will be watching you! then you thought people so eng, volunteer to be in your neighbourhood watch patrol teams for what? play police and thief ar?!

a muse..

have you ever noticed what is on those public toilet checklists?


now how do they determine if a toilet "smells" satisfactory? taiji? huuuu xiiiii.. :P

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i want to colour my hair again..suggestions anyone?

blue monday..

i am so tired..and it's just the first day at work! goodness! i forsee a busy four months in front of me..and guess what? the worst bit isn't even about the work..i have to wear a fuh-reaking tie to work everyday! can die! kenneth jioed me out for dinner/ supper later but really..all i want to do right now is slack..

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sat:

after dinner activity at the cheesecake cafe with kenneth, aileen and yaling..loved the ambience of the place..oh, and the cheesecakes ain't too bad either! (:

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common phrases used in conversations with me recently..

"talk cock"
"lame"
"wah lao/ kao/ liew"

commonly expressed as an exclamation and after something i've said..

sometimes you can't make it on your own
- U2

where i wanna be..

went for the contract signing this morning..so it's a done deal..i'll be working with manpower for the next four months as a sales analyst..sounds sibei steady and cool rite? but no name card leh..and according to the sales director no chance to convert to perm either..guess i'll just have to grit my teeth, dig my nails in, do my best and then keep my fingers crossed that something comes up..

sounds complicated doesn't it? all that teeth, nails and fingers coordination..think i'll stick to doing my best first..lest i injure any body parts! :P

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coffee bean's new honey dew ice blended..coool! a tad expensive at almost seven buckeroos..

but coool! :)

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there are some things i wish to say but i hold it in..some things i wish to feel but i ignore them..it's just not the right time for such things..

not yet..

cuz i want nothing more than
sit outside heaven's door
and listen to you breathing..
- lifehouse

what if?

met cheryl for lunch today..it never ceases to amaze us how we never actually ended up together..looking back, we were so infatuated with each other..the hand holding when we went out..the pager messages (last time no handphone la!)..the long phone conversations..my now infamous journey from tampines to choa chu kang with an equally infamous single yellow rose on a certain valentine's day years ago..both of us did not know it back then; i did not tell her how i felt and neither did she..it was only years later when we were talking about crushes when i admitted to her that i had a crush on her before that she admitted that she had a crush on me at that exact same time as well!

i guess we never really know how another person feels towards us until we take that chance and ask him/ her..the thing is, we always hold back for fear of losing him/ her even as a friend..but like i told my friend recently, does it really feel better to keep quiet and not to know how things may turn out? when she finally took the chance and sent him an email expressing her feelings, she had this great weight lifted off her shoulders..this, even though she did not end up with the guy..now at least she can move on with her life instead of pondering about the 'what if's..

i admit, i do think about the 'what could have been's at times..but i also know i have to keep moving..at the moment i am in "transit" when i do not really want to think too much about things and just let nature take its due course..there is only that much hurt and disappointment one can take..

let's take a brave jump over the side..
- coldplay

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something i found in a shop at chinatown..
cute rite?
no one to give it to yet though! :P

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an excerpt from my conversation with aileen..

aileen: so sat dinner addy treating!
addy: WHAT! urrr..think i suddenly got appointment.. -checks watch-
aileen: haha kns dun kay siao la
addy: aaaahh..got stomachache on that day..
aileen: wah u can predict the future ah
addy: -nodz- i feel my tummy rumbling liaoz mah
aileen: so saturday 4D which number 1st prize ah
addy: urrr..my tummy cannot predict 4D la..so kua zhang
aileen: kns so ur tummy can predict wat
addy: only whether got stomachache or not lor..like head can predict whether got headache or not..but head says saturday should be alright..
aileen: lame leh u
addy: you then lame ar! ask me for 4D numbers

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update for cny 2007:

heard from my mum that my grandma says cannot celebrate cny next year..
any volunteers to hold next year's gathering then?

spoiler

to set the record straight, i am NOT attached! you may think i made things up or lied..but if you read the post carefully, at no point did i mention that this girl is my girlfriend..

now what the post IS about is that i have a friend (whose name really has the letters "in" in it) who finally got attached after years of wondering if there is something wrong with her and thinking that she is not good enough..and i'm just really really happy for her..as for who this girl is..does it really matter now?

curious-er and curious-er

i am so tired today..not sure from what also..i was actually quite tempted to accept gabriel's invitation to join him at zouk for mambo, given that i do not have work tomorrow (feel bad that i keep rejecting him as well)..but in the end i decided to save the money, stay home and just slack..

speaking of which, i will not have much "slack time" left from next week onwards..i have accepted a four month contract as a sales analysis support contract staff (it's a mouthful i know!) with manpower..no more late supper nights for me on weekdays!

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with regards to the previous post..won't you like to know who the girl is eh? ok..one clue is..her name has the letters "in" in it..

all will be revealed in due time..

in a champagne supernova in the sky..
- oasis

unlike addy

recently, i've been eating too much, spending too much, staying out too late and sleeping too little..totally unlike me! probably that's why i've been talking cock as well..because it's..(repeat after me now) unlike addy!

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just now:

(at dinner with kenneth, chris and siqing)

we should mock the taiwanese man..they think their "J" (Jay Chou) very good issit? but we have JJ (Lin)..even better! double the power!

apparently it was quite funny cuz chris and siqing laughed..either that or they were just being polite..

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hey jinx, check this out!

mm zai
mm guan
mm si wa eh dai ji

cool eh? :P

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i'm attached! (:

hooray
hoorah

who do you think she is?

super saturday

been quite a super day..went for broadway beng with jinxy in the afternoon..while waiting for her, i went to peninsula shopping centre hoping to take a look at the new tottenham hotspur jersy but it hasn't arrived..along the way i got myself this new drink from spinelli's, choc mint spin..nice..though i still prefer the peppermint one from starbucks last christmas..


we arrived late for the play and had to sit out the opening song..though judging from what we saw on the screen outside the theatre, we didn't miss that much..when we made it in, sebastian was explaining the concept of how the play came about which was quite amusing; something along the lines of how if a beng wants to make it big, he has to perform more than just at seventh month getais, he has to do broadway musicals which, explains the title..the play was a mixture of hokkien and english songs with lots of funny banter in between..besides being quite funny, he has a really solid singing voice! gosh..eat that singapore idols! when he announced the last song, jinxy and i were like "that's fast!" but our handphones confirmed that one and a half hours had indeed passed..so sad..he ended up with a hilarious version of "stand up for singapore"..what i'd like to see is a dim sum dollies vs broadway beng musical! that'd be cool! speaking of which, dim sum dollies will be back in little shop of horrors in november!


after the play, jinx suddenly had this urge for a certain "five star chicken rice" but problem is she doesn't know where it is..so for a few minutes we were like

1) tourists (asking 7-11 store assistants and taxi drivers for directions)
2) game show contestants (calling whichever friend we thought would be familiar with the area) and
3) food hunters (ala mankansutra or those channel 8 ones with bryan wong)

we ended up getting directions from a taxi driver and walking aimlessly down river valley road without knowing exactly where the place was! so we just walked and walked and walked until..we saw great world city! then i realised where she was talking about! it was along a stretch of shophouses where my dad used to bring us for "gai si mee" (sliced chicken mushroom noodles) when i was younger..when i told her my sudden realisation, she said "yeah! correct!"..kaoz..can knock her head siah..as a reward for our persistance and long walk, we had a super filling dinner..more because when we complained about our plate of chicken having too much bones and too little meat (after eating half of it!), the manager changed a whole new plate of chicken meat for us! to digest our dinner, we did what we initially were dead against doing..we walked back to mohd sultan! somehow, when you know your way the walk seems shorter la!

for dessert (yes we had dessert! because jinxy said "there is always room for dessert!"), we went to this place beside her workplace called canele..nice and quiet place to slack and slowly savour the cakes, which despite their "petite" appearances were creamy and rich..we had one called le royale and another coffee one..sinful sinful..we ended up amusing ourselves by disecting the last piece of the coffee cake which was made of (from the bottom up) sponge cake, walnut cream with walnut chucks in it, another layer of cake (chocolate i think) and coffee mousse!



then she had to work..and so i spent the remainder of the evening sitting at the bar at her workplace sipping ice water to rinse off the sweetness of the cakes, occasionally talking to her whilst she whizzed around the bar, heard her boss tell a story about how an angmo held a door for someone and was called a xenophobic in return, watched a bit of the liverpool match before i finally got off my lazy butt and left at halftime..the place was starting to fill up and someone kept reminding me how i said i would leave before the first match started and that since i've stayed i might as well stay until the last match ended! bo ko leng..

now i'm looking at less than 6 hours of sleep before waking for church in the morning, watching click at noon with karen, a football match in the evening and (just maybe only!) dinner out with kenneth, yaling and aileen! i need rest!

of the break-up, jelly beans and too much food..

it's been a tiring week..

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mon-thu:

helped out jess' sister leya at her company, co-organization in preparation for an upcoming public forum..answering calls, helping in admin stuff and entertaining (or irritating) her! been a real eye-opener, getting to see how an event gets put together, the hustle and bustle of liaising with the client and then coordinating with the various vendors..nice but really exhausting..despite being paid a dollar less for every hour as compared to at access direct, i chalked up almost the same amount for four days as i did for one and a half weeks at access direct!

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thu:

went to catch the break-up with kenneth and bee hui at the cathay..initially, i thought the movie was pretty crappy and pointless, especially with a "what the!" type of ending..but upon reflection it suddenly made perfect sense..the plot and the characters may seem a tad confusing because they don't seem to know what they want and how they feel throughout the show..but aren't break-ups like that? the feeling of wanting to hold on but to let go at the same time? the feeling of loving yet hating that very same person? the fightings and arguments may be over-exaggerated and trivial but it all adds to the fun of the show..as for the ending, let's just say i understand :)

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thu-fri:

triggered by aileen, i went in search of the elusive "jelly beans from 7-11"! why "elusive"? it's like i went into three different 7-11s on thursday night and none of them sold anything remotely looking like jelly beans! but just when i thought maybe they had sold out or something, i found them on friday at the branch at orchard!


not very nice though, too chewy for my liking :/ but the jaffa cakes from marks and spencer are really really goooooooooooooooooood :)

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fri:

wanted to chill out somewhere but couldn't find any kaki so ended up having dinner with ning at bugis (she "kopped" one packet of my jelly beans btw!)..we ate at this stall opposite bugis junction called yukee..apparently, it is reknowned for it's duck rice, kway chap, roasted duck noodles and char siew noodles..ning had the duck rice and i had the kway chap and turns out it is really quite good and for $3 each only!


later at night, just when i was about to k-o for the day, kenneth jio-ed supper at simpang bedok which i reluctantly accepted because i had a really exhausting week..alex and gwen (who pointed out that it's been more than a year since we last met!) came along as well..i thought maybe just go there grab a prata and that's that..but when gwen and kenneth both ordered roti john, i was also tempted to try it..i mean, roti john with mushroom and cheese leh! sounds tantilising rite? it was pretty good but i was also pretty damn full (and sleepy) after finishing the whole thing myself..sinful man..all these oily food so late at night!

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going for broadway beng now..should be lots of fun! (: epl starts tonight! watching click tomorrow (i think, i hope)! it's going to be a swell weekend!

a muse..

addy says:

the bed is your best friend..most of us sleep with it at night..
roll on it..
drool on it..
bounce on it..
or even perform some NC-16 stuff on it (contains nude scenes)..
but you should never..
ever..
kick it..
cuz..
it has feelings too..
it will hurt..

you!

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jess says that i am not good at talking cock..but i am supposedly (according to her) VERY good at talking cock..

but honestly now..am i?

fireworks.. again!

for the second night in a row i was at the esplanade for the fireworks display..this time i went with adrienne (my friend from air force..i used to be known as her "meimei"!!) and her friend, irene..if the crowd yesterday was bad..then today it's more than two times worse! we got subway take-aways and reached there before 8pm..the whole place was already filled to the brim! goodness..initially we followed the crowd and got stuck in a massive human jam..thankfully we somehow managed to forge a path and made it to the steps at the waterfront..two kind aunties even made space for us so that we could sit while we waited! so cool! apparently they have been there since 5.30pm!

when the display started at 9pm, everyone was on their feet, admiring the fireworks-lit sky to a symphony of "ooo"s and "aaahhh"s..and just for that 15 minutes, it seemed like the whole world stood still as the sky glittered and sparkled in a colourful splendour.. adrienne and i agreed it was a trip worthwhile though both of us were there the night before - we both had crappy views then! when it was all over, i asked the two aunties if that 15 minutes was worth their three hours wait..and i can still picture those gleeful smiles on their faces as they told me in no uncertain terms "of course!"

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i'm tired, my eyes are closing and i'm starting to see fireworks on my screen (those are the photos? oh riiight..)..

good night..

fireworks..

went to catch the fireworks display last night at the esplanade with ning..and in my own words it was so fuh-reaking crowded! all the eating places in the vacinity were filled to the max..even at millenia walk! it was pretty crazy..


despite being "impaired" by the trees and surrounded by droves of sweaty people, the fireworks were still spectacular! (:

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here's something amusing i found on nme..

Organisers of a Pussycat Dolls show have been fined for flouting decency laws in Malaysia.

On Tuesday (August 8) the band's promoters Absolute Entertainment were charged 10,000 Ringgits (£1,436) for allowing the band to perform "sexually suggestive" routines.

The fine was the result of an article published in the Malay Mail that quoted Culture Arts and Heritage Minister Datuk Mohamad Arif Abdul Rahman as saying: "I believe the way the Pussycat Dolls behaved onstage amounted to gross indecency."

No officials were present at the concert, which took place at Sunway Lagoon theme park, south of Kuala Lumpur.

However, the fine has been reduced by 50 per cent.

"The compound notice issued was for RM10,000, but it's only payable if the matter goes to court. As the organisers settled the fine early, they were entitled to a 50 per cent discount," Rahman said yesterday (August 10).

hahaha..damn funny..i know this is the seventh month but i didn't know ghost complaints are also valid!! hahaha..and break law also got discount ar? so does that mean, if i robbed a bank and i turn myself in early, i still get to keep half my share of the loot? hahaha..

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and here's a rarity..something alex said that actually makes sense!

if you love someone, let him/her know..

if you're uncomfortable to express it straight to his/her face, there's the email, snail mail, sms, phone, msn, blog and what-not..so what are you waiting for? you never know what you're going to find behind that door until you take a risk, make the first move and open it..for all you know, someone is waiting for you too..

a post for 9th august..

i was just looking around the other day and there were singapore flags everywhere..buses, taxis, cars, houses..which got me thinking..does national pride only appear during national day? it's like for most of the year, people complain about the government, complain about the weather, complain about how other countries are better, complain about the economy and complain about anything else they can find to complain about..and when national day nears, these same people would die just for a pair of tickets to the ndp..maybe it's like how some guys only buy roses for their girlfriends on valentine's day or how some people only go to church on christmas..or maybe they are like me..afterall, which country is safer or more peaceful? i mean, people in other coutries moan about their government, economy and weather too..i guess the grass is always greener on the other side..sure, we are not blessed with wide open fields or big white sandy beaches or a shopping district as long as the pan island expressway, but what we are blessed with is already the envy of many others..so even if it's just for one day, let's remember and be grateful..happy 41st birthday singapore and happy national day everyone (ableit a belated one)!

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as of 7 august, monash university has stopped offering its courses through tmc..the reason given was that "the changed arrangement was the result of the university's strategic intent to focus on building up its research capabilities and encouraging undergraduate programmes based on on-campus experience"..it disturbs me when a university throws out a statement like this..which doesn't help existing perception most companies already have about distance learning degrees.. despite that, i'm proud in a way to be amongst the last few monash university graduates to graduate here in singapore! hey, we are ranked higher than ntu ok! :P

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eh jinx, i buy the kahlua for you la..you make me the brown cow k? deal or not? :P

absence

i keyed this into my handphone when i was outside..then did some editing when i got home..my intention is to make it sound abstract but now it just sounds like something is amissed or ironically absent..

absence
makes the heart fonder
or does it make the heart forget?
does it make one stronger
to let go of regret
that we didn't
it didn't used to matter
the heart yearns
to feel a presence
fond memories
nothing absent

addy (10 august 2006)

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whinings..

it's the national day week! which means..probably no interviews and no responses until friday! oh well, at least i still have the temp assignment with jinhui until i find a job..she's been really nice about it, letting me leave early and giving me time off for my interviews..funny how she trusts me despite knowing each other for such a short time..haha..i'm even like her personal hr manager now..

want to catch two shows..the lake house and click..i know lots of guys will cringe saying the lake house is just a typical love story (where we all know the ending!) probably made worse with keanu reeves as the male lead..but who cares! honestly most people don't read love stories for the endings anyway..it's more the process and the storyline which captivates..or maybe i'm biased cuz i'm a sucker for romance novels and shows..oh well..

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itchyyyyyyyyyyy itchyyyyy..this is the part about getting a tan that i really hate..argh! luckily there's no peeling..phew..

burnt!

i am so red! especially my shoulders! argh..hope my skin don't peel like the last time.. was at sentosa with karen and samuel (karen's bro) today..it was decided quite impromptu this morning but the plan was to get a tan and then try out the skyride and luge.. after our tanning session, we dropped by km8 for a drink..the shooter names were quite "suggestive"; there was this one called "blowjob"..we spent a few minutes amusing ourselves with that..the best one which came out of our short musing was samuel's.."how long will it take to come?" hahaha..funny stuff..

though it's been around for quite some time already, it's our first time trying out the rides..the skyride was pretty nerve-wrecking for me - i'm quite a sissy when it comes to flimsy structures and heights! the first time was the worst; we were not really prepared when it came and we all sat towards one side so the carriage was lop-sided..to make matters worse, the ride stopped halfway and we were suspended in mid-air for around half a minute while the afternoon breeze swayed our carriage gently from side to side..at least karen's wailing eased the tension somewhat! :P the next two went considerably better - i guess partly because we already knew what to expect.. the luge on the other hand was really fun though it was (as my friends had forewarned) quite a short ride downhill..but considering we took the package ($15 for 3 skyrides and 3 luge), it was well worth it! plus we had lots of fun on the rides (up and down 3 times leh!) and posing for the cameras while on the skyride and the luge (will post them up when i get them).. we were in sentosa from 12.30pm to nearly 6pm but time seemed to pass so fast! hope we can go back soon! now i just want to catch up on my 4 hours of sleep from last night!

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12.30am - saturday morning (friday night)..
went to nus to pick jinxy up to meet kenneth at fong seng for supper..

upon sitting down:
jinxy: the food sucks!

while ordering:
jinxy: try the cheese prata..
and so i obediently ordered..

after supper:
addy: it really sucks!
jinxy: i told you so..
addy: then why you ask me to order the cheese prata?
jinxy: to prove to you it really sucks!

can die! anyway, it was really really salty!! i think it was either the cheese or the ah neh making the prata was one heavy "sweater"!! the only good (or bad) thing was that they gave me two pratas (double the torture?) for the price of one.. after supper, we went up to kent ridge park - apparently kenneth has this fetish of spying on people as they made out..due to a lack of "action", we ended up just sitting there talking a lot..when it was time to go, jinxy wanted to show me the "initial d" route..

jinxy: eh speed up leh..
addy: -makes a sharp corner-
jinxy: woah..why you go so fast?

can die! ended up home at around 4am and slept about 5am.. and..as i had expected, my biological clock woke me up at 9am this morning! why la!

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lots of people misunderstand..or is it because they can see clearer?

lame-o

this just came into my head on my way home.. you know how girls combine their maiden surname with their husband's surname these days? well i suddenly thought what if i married a girl whose surname was tan..that'd make her a tan-tan (steamed egg!) hehehehe :P i know..lame-o.. but at least it's better than lim-tay or tay-oh or chew-boo rite? -grins- okok..i stop i stop! :x

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what is happening to us?
what exactly is this?
that when i talk
you think you feel bliss
this is so unreal
so..untrue
and i,
i'm just as clueless as you
where do we go from here?
so long and goodbye?
or well..maybe
we can give it a try
i look to you for an answer
you waited for a reply
i shake my head
you sigh
"really i can do without this"
"so can i honestly"
"but i don't know.."
"i'm just as confused, trust me!"
"do you think it is what i think this is?"
"well i'm not exactly sure"
"seriously?"
"if i agreed, would you feel better?"
you shrugged, "maybe"
"maybe we can give it a try?"
i look to you for an answer
you leaned over to reply

addy (04 august 2006)

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went walking about gramophone at raffles place after my interview with hellomoto! (which went alright)..on my way out, the sales lady (i forgot her name!) called out to me "hey haven't seen you around in a while"..i was like "woah!"..honestly, i don't actually believe i make much of an impact on people so it came rather as a surprise that she recognises me..and when i told her i was looking for a marketing position, she called their main office to help me enquire if the company had a vacancy! "woah woah!" in the end, it turned out that the position was taken but this really made my day..thank you (i'll get your name the next time!)! (:

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trying out a new magic trick..any volunteers to be my tester? :P

i - a - h

i log on to blogger..click create..and then..i wonder what to blog.. i wish i can rant on about the state of the world, morals and all that but really, i'm in a me, myself, addy and adrian mood so let's not spoil it now shall we? i know there's a war going on in the middle east but honestly, is there a need to debate who's right or wrong? lives are being lost out there..the funny part is some country can bomb bomb bomb then say "eh sorry hor..i really didn't mean to drop the bomb there la.."..so the bombs were supposed to hit somewhere more crowded? -duh- oh and, noel gallagher must have had a pretty bad nightmare last night of a certain paul twohill killing sally with his rendition of oasis' "don't look back in anger"..

anyways.. telemarketing this week has been going fine..to me, it's more about helping out a friend than for the money but then again..do you regard someone you hardly know as a friend? as in really really hardly hardly know? i'm weird this way i guess.. interviews and potential jobs are coming along at a pretty decent pace but it's still the ibm and mooks ones i'm eyeing the most..i've got motorola tomorrow morning and i'm like so totally anti-motorola..oh well, i'll try to like them better if they employ me..

hope to catch click this weekend..maybe (pending the outcome of karen's visit to "the dentist")..it looks like a really fun show from the trailers..plus i'm an adam sandler fan! :P also planning for broadway beng..jinxy's like more enthu than i am! resulting in a weird phenomenon called the tele-poot-ie..maybe it's due to her increased level of enthusiasm or maybe she accidentally synchronised us through one of her p.a.s! if it's the last one, maybe i should just p.a. her back..muahahaha.. i've said too much..

addy out!

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some amusing stuff..

i found a parody of james blunt's you're beautiful on weird al yankovic's website..the starting is just so classic weird al! hehe..

click here to download "weird al yankovic - you're pitiful"

saw this on sam's msn nick..haha..use your mouse to move zidane and the left button to headbutt! cool!

all that durian..

i think my body's going a bit crazy..even gab was like "are you sure?" when i went round looking for a milo bar (that is, after lunch at karen's place and two buns from four leaves).. then after footie, i got home, had dinner, met kenneth and jinx, had teh-peng (iced teh) and after that, we met aileen and had a durian supper at geylang! weight check as of this morning..no change leh! where have all the food gone!!

when i reached home, i was so totally exhausted (as my friends will tell you, i ain't no night owl!)..but i couldn't sleep until about 2-3am! argh! all that durian.. for the whole of today, i've been a bit brain dead..yes even during my interview this morning..but it's finance and i don't really want to go back into that so it's not so bad.. after that i tried to call my agent to tell her i wasn't taking the singtel call centre job and..

addy: may i speak to kaye?

someone else: kaye's in a meeting right now..can i help you?

addy: eh..urm..uh..what (i wanted to ask what time would she be back)..urm..eh..how (how long would the meeting last?)..urrr..i..uh..(that took about a minute i should think, before..) it's alright i'll call back later!

on hindsight i should have just given my name and asked her to call me back..bah..just wanted to whine a little before my telemarketing assignment..may "top up" later..addy out!

addy says..
never eat durians on the eve of an interview..

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in relation to my eating habits..i've gone on a cd rampage (shit!)..been a long time since i lost control..think a part of it is due to stress? i have no bladdy idea stress over what..body stress? mental stress? stressed over the job hunt? stressed over finances? stressed over my sickness? stressed over stress? or maybe i've just too much damn free time (which the telemarketing assignment will help solve a little!)..

casualties (within the past month or two):

alicia keys: the diary of (secondhand)
cher: the greatest hits (secondhand)
kd lang: ingenue (secondhand)
kt tunstall: eye to the telescope
lene marlin: lost in a moment
silje nergaard: the essential
chris tomlin: ...arriving
ed harcourt: the beautiful lie
morrissey: live at earl's court
thom yorke: the eraser
delirious?: cutting edge 3 and 4
delirious?: the mission bell
electrico: hip city
human nature: here and now (secondhand)
keane: under the iron sea
longpigs: mobile home (secondhand)
muse: black holes and revelations
razorlight: razorlight
republica: republica (secondhand)
the automatic: raoul ep
the cure: wish (secondhand)
the departure: dirty words
the feeling: twelve stops and home
the kills: no wow
various artists: alternative love songs (secondhand)
various artists: top 25 praise songs (secondhand)
various artists: wow worship (secondhand)
jolin tsai: j-top
jj lin: haven (secondhand)
jj lin: cao cao

for those hungry wolves out there..no i am not ripping anything out for you!
pay me to!

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complain column..

addy wishes to bring three p.a. charges against jinxy for:

physical attack
- for all the piaks on the back (my cough cured already hor) and that right hook in my ribs!

personal attack
- suan me leh!

psychological attack
- by calling me lame and then laughing at what i say confuses me and..when i threaten to drop you off along the expressway, you are not supposed to negotiate the location or laugh, that confuses me as well!!

cough cough..bye bye!

my cough's almost gone..yes! actually, it has been getting better since last sunday..not sure how but it just suddenly got better..

maybe it's..

1. my aunt's back-whacking..yes she literally whacked me all over my back! it's supposed to clear the phlegm by the way..

her: -piak piak piak-

addy: haha..cough cough..hahaha..cough cough..

her: don't laugh!

addy: oorh..cough cough..

2. my grandma's miracle massage with the hong you (hokkien for medicated oil)..and you should really stop picturing her doing that whole shaolin thing! not so drama k!

or

3. sunday's church service..praise God..

whichever it was, i'm just glad the cough's over.. now xp and jinxy, don't come buddy buddy with me until you girls are nice and cured hor? :P

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quotes of the day courtesy of..roland!

"i think i got even more fair lo~"
addy says: dude soon you'll be transparent!!

"hmm.. maybe.. but i think you got the charisma to charm ppl!.. ;D"
addy says: is that why you always hug me when you see me?

it's nice talking to roland..he's always so cheerful and carefree.. even when you're having a bad day, just talking to him can somehow soften the blow a little.. since we're on him, here are just three things about roland..

1. he is one blur dude.. either that or his acting has been damn consistent throughout the years!

2. he is usually in white.. no no not him! there's this rumour that ninety percent (maybe more!) of his wardrobe is made up of white t-shirts!

3. he hugs me.. everytime he sees me without fail! till today i still ask myself..why? sam and raymond are so much more cuddly!