Saturday, April 21, 2007

on the road to...?

wild hogs
@ gv marina with kenneth

i recommended this show to kenneth despite knowing almost nothing about it..but it was a gut feel come good..it is a really funny show la! lots of laugh-out-loud moments..just nice to close off what has been a very hectic week! :)

i should really get started on those dvds ginny lent me or she'll soon be hanging pig heads on my door! then again, her being "atas" (high class), i'd probably expect mei zhen xiang bak kua instead! not such a bad thought is it? bak kua on a lazy weekend watching dvds! :P

it feels like we are slowly nearing our destination but..i keep thinking of making a u-turn at the next junction...

Monday, April 16, 2007

fight back!

i am extremely gratified at the amount of support i have been receiving from everyone at work..but the harsh reality is that i am still very much on my own. it's just like everything has suddenly fallen onto my shoulders and even though work has been allocated..truth is, is anyone else really in full control? you'd have to bribe me with an extremely obscene sum of money for me to give a resounding "yes"! i am starting to pick up the pieces, i am starting to exert myself..and if anyone thinks that i am weak, then they are mistaken and (to quote from ginny) bladdy stupid (she usually just says "stupid" but i added in "bladdy" for good measure)! the hard part though is in having to overcome myself - my emotions, my distractions, my "zoned out" periods et cetera et cetera...

eric is right, this is the time to prove myself, to push beyond my own boundaries and to explore the possibilities..and with the willing help of so many people, i don't see why i cannot make it happen. funnily, jess and sheena both said the same thing to me - that whatever happens, wherever i am and whoever i encounter, they believe that i am someone who will always find my way to make things alright in the end..somehow..

i am thankful..for the people who constantly believe in me..to ginny for making me tough..and to everyone who has made the rough less rough..i am not ready to disappoint anybody yet..just you wait!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

turtle power

teenage mutant ninja turtles
@ gv tampines mall with karen

have been wanting to catch this for the longest time..not because i expected it to be a spectacular show but rather to revisit our childhood heroes! i mean, we all once wished we were sidekicks of leonardo, donatello, raphael and michelangelo rite? while the storyline was everything we'd expect it to be, the characters have all been given updated looks (and voices)..for one, karen and i both did not remember april o'neil as a lara croft! it was kind of weird to see our green friends after so long but it was nice, even if it was just to relive the memories :)

jess commented how amazing it was that i have been caught in so many crossroads over the past year - whether in love or in work..you know that feeling of getting caught at consecutive traffic lights? well, that is how it feels like..every time that life seems back to normal, something else happens and i get stopped dead in my tracks again..it is tough because i cannot seem to build up any momentum or gain any inspiration. if there is one thing that i have learnt throughout this time, it is that things will always have a way of working out in the end..somehow. so while life could be better, it could also be worse..instead, i should be thankful that i constantly have the company and encouragement of friends..people whose ears must be a little tone-deaf (specific to my voice) from all my whinings!

the lights are turning green soon..and i must be ready to go..

you are not "the foe" la silly marie!

Thursday, April 12, 2007

friend or foe?

who are you
my friend or foe?
carefully chosen words
but has the truth been told?
is there a knife
hidden behind your back?
should i stop
and anticipate an attack?
or should i take a breath
pause and hold
patiently wait
for things to unfold
when the mask come off
and in time, reveal
your true colours
the real you
but who should i expect
a friend or foe?
what should i hope?
i don't really know...

addy (12 april 2007)

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

blank spaces

incoherent are my thoughts..
about..love
about..work
about..nothing
about..everything
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am
weighed
down
as i said..
incoherent..

emoticon fight on msn with ms ling
all blank spaces are where the emoticons are!

yalinG says:
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i won in the end because her computer gave up on her behalf and disconnected her! haha..and you really still need a reason to know why we are such good buds? :P

Saturday, April 07, 2007

feeling free

06 april 2007, good friday

freedom writers
@ gv tampines mall with marie

i was telling marie when we were still deciding on which show to watch, anything after that horrendously torturous (yeah it is double negative!) mr bean movie will be good! and it was! "freedom writers" is very much like that famous michelle pfeiffer movie "dangerous minds"..erin gruwell’s passion to become a teacher is soon challenged by a group of black, latino, and asian gangbangers who hate her even more than each other. when erin begins to listen to them in a way no adult has ever done, she begins to understand that for these kids, getting through the day alive is enough they are not delinquents but teenagers fighting a war of the streets that began long before they were born. erin gives them something they never had from a teacher before - respect. in highlighting the various vulnerabilities in life, freedom writers' most important lesson is that even in our darkest hours, there is always an outlet of hope..predictable but inspiring nonetheless..

i still want to watch my teenage mutant ninja turtles!

07 april 2007, saturday

went for a 4.5 hours marathon kbox session with karen..she is probably my best ktv companion man..it's only with her that i get to try out all the ulu songs (from the newest hits all the way to the oldies) and not feel embarassed in doing so..not to mention that she is also my best duet partner! :) and if you were thinking 4.5 hours is such a long time, trust me, it always ends too soon!

Sunday, April 01, 2007

a very random post

mr. bean's holiday
@ gv tampines mall with chris, kenneth and ryan

*note: the sole purpose of this entry is to remind myself never ever EVER again to watch such a crappy show..and if i do, to remind myself never ever EVER to bring my brain along!

argh! chow turtle!
(voiceover: now..in theatres islandwide!)

which reminds me..i still want to watch the teenage mutant ninja turtles!
(voiceover: now..in theatres islandwide!)
addy: !!!
voiceover: i am a voiceover!
addy: oh? urm..thank you..i kind of figured that out..
voiceover: you are welcome!
addy: yes ok..but you really can stop it now..you have done your job and your voice is creeping me out!
voiceover: it is my duty as a voiceover! and i can't help my voice being like this..should i change my tone? is it too deep? do i speak too fast?
addy: it's not that..voiceovers do not just come in in the middle of blog entries..
voiceover: they don't?
addy: no..they do not..so you should stop!
voiceover: why are you talking to me then?
addy: i am not talking to you
voiceover: you just responded to me..
addy: no i didn't!
voiceover: there..again!
addy: argh! chow turtle!
voiceover: now..in theatres islandwide!
addy: -_-!!!

a commercial break..

the music on this blog is brought to you by the little devil dj spinning on the left-hand side..specially employed from esnips..now back to your regular programme!

here is a sneak peek of a typical conversation with marie..be warned! as she would say, "it is the lame!"

this came from a conversation about her msn nickname "marie - i have the hots for mature british guys."..to which a certain mr. bean was added to her list..how did we end up talking about red bean soup? your guess is as good as mine!

marie: i like the red bean soup!
marie: considering my mom makes it!
addy: cool!
addy: am i allowed to try?
addy: or is it only available to family members?
marie: no la
marie: u can eat one la
marie: i ask my mom make more la
marie: but i need to req one
addy: wah sei!
addy: even at home it's so administrative!
addy: need to make a written request..
addy: wow!
marie: cos my mom works ma.
marie: so she onli cook in the weekends.
marie: hahaha
marie: eh!
marie: i got say written req meh
addy: it's the way you say it mah..
addy: or is it through email?
marie: no la
marie: verbal!
addy: ooorh..
addy: no need black and white and cc: your dad ar?
marie: of cos.
marie: he eat only wat!


i know i know..we are the lame! to think that joan was initially scared that marie and i would not get along too well because she was too chatty..what can i say right?

i have a high tolerance level! hahaha..

i like this..



do i make you happy?

with a wink..
or a grin..
or with what i say?

i don't mind if the whole world laughs with me..
for me..
or at me..

i feel blessed..
knowing i am able to bring a smile to others with lesser effort than most...

but all i really want..
is to make one person happy..
just one..
i'd be happy..

i like this also..