2010...19 days on

I have...

...started typing using proper casing in my blog posts and tweets (omg, when did that happen!).

...completed 2 football matches in the last 2 weeks. Really nice to finally get back on the field again after more than a year...slowly working myself back into fitness. Also heard from Minjie that we may take part in the Church League again!

...sung with the Trinity choir for their Christmas and Watchnight services. Even though I missed out on the New Year's Eve fireworks, the choir created our own "fireworks" during the Watchnight service and it was really such a blessed experience to have served with them.

...thought about changing my blog skin. Any volunteers? :P

There are other stuff on my mind and that have happened over the last 19 days of course. But I guess, as insignificant as they seem, these things just happen to be at the top of my mind (not in terms of priorities).

refreshed!

it's been two and a half weeks at national health group (nhg) and i'm quite enjoying my time. it's been a long time since i've said that, also noticed by wong, whom i've known since my poly days. besides my close group, wong is the probably the other person whom i was really close with during my poly days. all the hours spent in his cd shop - when i've skipped class (which is nearly all the time) - just talking about music, girls and about life in general. after my ill-fated stint with the people's association (pa), i'm determined that i will never again step into the civil service again. for those six months, i felt stupid, useless and strangled. but all that's in the past now and all i can say is that some people are cut out for the government sector and others (like me) are just not.

now at nhg, i'm regularly leaving office at least one hour after official hours but not once has it felt enforced upon me. in fact, it's been such a smooth transition, it feels like i've been here much longer than the two and a half weeks. in fact i've not felt so refreshed and challenged since the first time i was at manpower.

on a separate note, i will be part of the choir singing at my church's christmas services! i seriously don't know what got into me to make me sign up (dragging jana along). in fact, the last time i've taken to the stage was during the manpower's dinner and dance when i had jack, alvin, eric, sheena and alex along. even then, it was to an audience which was familiar to me and one that was less than a hundred. come christmas, i will be singing alongside unfamiliar faces, facing a packed auditorium made up of thousands of strangers. a nerve wrecking thought but...i'm really looking forward to it (especially when jana is also in the choir...i mean how cool is that!). :) can't wait for the first rehearsal this sunday!

hyper boleh!

felix's sessions on writing have been a real eye-opener. not just because he is a journalist or a writer or a lecturer or a critic, but because he is all that. while i thought that it was a most useful session, my fellow attendees spoke about getting felix to "adapt" to the civil service style of writing or how they were trying to stay awake. i will save my comments about their typical civil servant attitudes for another time.

much as i have enjoyed the sessions, i do not agree with everything no matter how correct they are (yes, i disagree with the "correctness" of some of them). probably my biggest disagreement was the use of "hyperboles" in writing. (a hyperbole is an exaggeration is used for emphasis or effect; an extravagant statement).

according to him, hyperboles serve no purpose other than take up more space. here are some of his examples:

"freak accident" - every accident is freakish in nature. which accident was planned?
"innocent bystander" - "innocent" is redundant because a bystander is always innocent.
"latest update" - updates are meant to be the latest news.
"significant milestone" - milestones are all significant.

while i agree that hyperboles are redundant in writing, my bone of contention is from the readers' point of view. with so much information available to us these days, how do you capture a reader with just "accident" or "milestone" or "update" - there are accidents everywhere and everyday, and there are updates ALL the time.

despite his insistence that it is poor writing, i stand firm on this (sorry felix). as a reader i do not want to read about ALL accidents and ALL updates. boring boring boring. what will catch my attention is if (in felix's own words) the "accident was freakishly out of this world"! poor writing, sure. but strong appeal.

i am not saying that hyperboles be used all the time and everything needs to be exaggerated to capture readers - over-exaggeration too is a sin. but no matter how redundant hyperboles are to a "proper sentence", the fact is, it is a "redundancy" which can (if used appropriately) capture readers' attention and imagination.

so now, would you rather watch "a comedy which is so damn hilariously funny, it will numb your funny bones" or "a comedy"? you decide.

why civil servants are happier than private sector workers

amazed by the results of a survey conducted by jobscentral - which reported that "civil servants (were) happier compared to those in private sector" - i thought i'd come up with 10 reasons how that could be possible.

1. a civil servant's work does not require that much thinking (if applicable at all).

2. the world's biggest companies are either in trouble, folding or folded. but organisations in "good company" won't.

3. they were provided a step-by-step guide for the survey so that they will not "go wrong".

4. they were given only two choices - it was either happy or ecstatic.

5. it is the recession now leh. a safe place is a happy place.

6. as with all civil service procedures, the subordinates "drafted" the survey answers (pending their superior's approval).

7. a civil servant's job is very specialised - they just need to do their parts. the rest pass on to the "appropriate party". private sector workers need to bao ka liao (everything also must do!) or they will liao liao (say bye bye!).

8. there was a happiness audit.

9. the surveyees were arrowed. but promised full anonymity.

10. isn't jobscentral a job board (where people look for jobs)? you mean they have that many civil servants in its database!

of fate...and of God

i wanted to blog an entry about the turnaround of my life since one year ago (exact to the month) but i realise that i had already done that (click here)..well kind of anyway! so rather than telling you all about my lovely girlfriend and how God has changed my life, i thought i'd do a more "serious" entry - putting my thoughts about this thing called "fate" into words. before you 1) close this window or 2) surf on to another blog, thinking this is going to be a religion bashing and christian life promoting entry, let me assure you that it is neither.

so what is the difference between "fate" and "God's plan"?

dictionary.com defines "fate" as:
1) the supposed force, principle, or power that predetermines events,
2) the inevitable events predestined by this force,
3) a final result or consequence; an outcome and
4) unfavorable destiny; doom.

most definitions of "fate" inevitably contains this element of assumption - "supposed force", "presumably", "element of chance" etc. this also means that people who believe in "fate" are saying that their lives are already "predetermined" and "predestined" by this unknown element of chance and assumption. which, also means that we do not have a free will because we can run and we can hide or we can stand still but the same things will still happen because ultimately, everything is "fated" for us.

but that is not true is it? because life is not like that. life is not all "fated". it is just like if you just lost your job but within a few weeks of searching you landed a new job, that is not "fate". "fate" predetermines that the "new job" will happen to you regardless of situation or of circumstance. but if you lost your old job and just sat at home waiting for "fate" to happen, the only thing inevitable is that nothing will happen. so then, how can "fate" (the new job in this case) be predetermined and be inevitable?

therein lies the key difference between "fate" and "God's plan". you may say, but God's plan also predetermines the people you will meet and the things you will do. not so, God's plan always involves choices and a free will. that is, nothing is predetermined unless you make the choice to do it. you retain the right to live your life, even if it means you choose to walk away from God. for example, God may choose to use you to help someone in need, but you can choose not to do so, you are free to make that choice.

one story i always repeat to my friends is that of a person who is stuck in a flood. God can send a log, a boat or even a helicopter his way. but if he does not choose to use any of these, it is inevitable that he will drown. so is it God's plan that this person should drown? no. but it is because he withheld his own free will in those moments that he (pardon the pun) met his "fate".

i know that there will still be skeptics but just remember that "fate" cannot happen if there are choices to be made - simply because there is a different outcome between "choice 1", "choice 2", "choice 3" and doing nothing. and when life is all about choices, ultimately, the only "fate" is the one you (not God, not your parents, not your friends but you) choose for yourself!

the face in facebook

helping jana in her assignments on social networking sites has made me become more aware of how superficial sites like facebook can be.

take for example facebook, most people will tell you that it helps them keep in touch with their friends and to seek out long lost classmates and friends. but honestly, among the hundreds of friends in our networks, how many do we actually "keep in touch" with regularly? even if i defined "regularly" as "once a year", i believe more than 50% of our network will still fail to qualify as "regular friends". which means effectively, facebook is just that, a collection of "faces". some we know affectionately, some we work with, some we were close to once upon a time, some a friend of a friend..and some others we have met or spoken to once or twice before and are added to the rest of our friends to beef up our impressive networks. afterall, it does feel good especially when you discover that you are a mutual friend to two or more of your friends whom you know separately. even then, there is only that much such a fact can stretch a conversation...

"oh you know so-and-so too!"...
"wow..how did you know him/her?"...
"that's interesting!"...
"by the way, how have you been?"...
and "well, good to hear you are well, do take care!" or "oh, sorry to hear that. do take care!"

then the friend in question is kept in hibernation until you discover the next mutual friend! maybe it is just me but i am not one for small talk (yup i know, the irony considering my profession).

and with the ever growing network of friends comes the other hassle - what information to expose to who. for example, i'd be crazy to change my status to "adrian facebooks too much in office" when almost half my colleagues are in my network of friends! (ok, if you are a colleague who is reading this, that was just an example. e-x-a-m-p-l-e means something i am using to illustrate my point.) and such is the accessibility of one's profile, your boss gets to actually see you in your seductive poses or in pictures where you are half-drunk, which is not very glamorous or professional unless..of course your boss was the other half in the pictures!

that said, facebook does offer a differentiator in terms of applications and interactivity which has seen the friendster link condemned to the archives or recycle bins in many computers. but while social networking sites continue to evolve, i sincerely hope that friendships do not evolve in tandem - from friends(ter) to just mere face(book)s.

rude rage

a few weeks back, pastor rony mentioned a theory about rude people which i found very meaningful. what he said was that rude people do not usually find themselves rude. but when we retaliate, it is us whom the other party will find rude.

which is true because, while we save our "best vocabulary" for lousy customer service, inconsiderate seat chope-ers, people-who-have-really-weak-limps-and-cannot-even-lift-their-hands-to-press-the-lift-door-open-button and the likes, these people tend to find their behaviour normal (to themselves). but if you reacted in the exact same way to them, they will point out to you that you are being unreasonable or rude. funny eh?

in addition, i'd reason that it is not really worth spending (wasting more like it!) so much energy on these rude people whom i do not know and who are probably getting on just fine with their miserable lives.

so now if someone was being rude to me, i'd tell myself that he/she was being normal (abnormal to the rest of us) or he/she was having a really bad day and just bear with it.

afterall, why stoop to other people's level when we condemn it eh?

looking back...

as the new year approaches and things seem to fall into place..it is amazing that when i look back, 2008 has been anything but smooth. in fact, it has been a rollercoaster of a year.

now i have a really happy and beautiful relationship, my family are all in good health and work-wise, i have been "promoted" and given more responsibilities.

but when things were bad this year, they came as bundles..like special promotions, buy 2 get 1 free! well in my case, i collected quite a lot of freebies! from my failed ventures into other jobs to my break-up with karen to my numerous injuries and sicknesses to the plunging stock market..all of which were hard to take..especially when they all came around the same period of time..it really felt like i got hit by one of those fighting games, multiple hit combos! but despite all those setbacks, i have been truly blessed that every time i've bounced back stronger or into a better situation.

really want to praise God for granting me peace of mind and calmness of heart every time..for always being faithful and seeing me through all those difficult times.

on my last day at emc when my marketing career seemed like it has hit a brick wall, manpower called me to ask if i was keen to rejoin them. who could have planned such timing?

at my lowest point after my breakup with karen, my friendship with jana took on a new level..when all the while it had never crossed my mind to chase her. who could have written such a story which included a very strange friday the 13th?

only God can.

so as 2009 begins, i look back with more fondness than bitterness..it is all about maintaining a positive mindset mixed with a lot of faith - that God will always make it better and He will never abandon us.

thank God for my jana and our beautiful relationship. thank God for my family's health and safety. thank God for putting my career back on track. thank God for everything else that i have been blessed with - my friends, my health, my financial status, my surroundings...everything at all.

last but not least, just want to wish everyone a really
FANTA-BULOUS and BLESSED 2009!

Cheers! :-)

faith

recently, jack asked me how did i know if this sudden spiritualism is not because of jana and if one day (touchwood!) when our relationship is no more, will i still be as spiritual? i wished to say that the answer is a resounding "yes" but quite honestly i would not know. aferall, who knows the future but God? i'd be lying if i said that the question has never crossed my mind before but that is all it was..just a passing thought. it may seem like i am being ignorant and simply avoiding the matter but why prophecise something which may not happen? this is the faith i have in God and in my relationship...

so what is faith? the only place where faith is tangible is in your heart which is why you just have to believe it (whether love or religion or anything else) with all your heart..knowingly, yet blindly at the same time. you have to know what you believe in, else your faith is useless because you are believing in nothing in particular..which also means you have absolutely no idea what you are putting your faith in. at the same time, one has to be blind in faith..because faith is intangible and unexplainable anywhere else other than in your heart. if you tried to put a "practical" reasoning to faith, chances are you will either fail, end up confusing yourself or lose faith altogether.

there is this common misconception that people with lots of faith, are just plain ignorant and stubborn in their beliefs. let me just illustrate how wrong this is. for example, in a relationship, you love the other person knowingly but at the same time blindly (not ignorantly). obviously you have to know that person before you get together with him/her but what people miss out is the "blindly" part..in a relationship, the moment you "open your eyes" and question things like:

1. "i cannot pinpoint why exactly i love him/her" or
2. "is there someone out there more suited for me?" or
3. "will he/she be better off without me?"

you open your eyes up to the practical world where your definition of "true love" comes from the movies and the questions will be neverending.

1. there have to be reasons why you love someone, but there is no such thing as an "exact" reason because everyone changes..love means you adapt and accept these changes. if you are with someone because of just one specific reason, chances are, you are likely to end up disappointed very soon.

2. yes, there are definitely a lot more people out there who are more suited for you..to which also begs the question, how much is enough and when do you know when you find the one "most" suited for you? it is a neverending search.

3. similar to (2), there is no "perfect match" for anyone..if he/she loves you, that person will be worse off without you.

that being said, one should not turn a blind eye to problems in a relationship..that'd just be plain ignorance! i always believe problems are meant to be resolved..the more problems a couple resolve together, the stronger the relationship becomes...

different people have their own reasons, explanations and philosopies on love..just because you do not adhere to their theories does not mean your relationship is doomed. everyone has a different route, everyone has a different experience but there is always that one common denominator..that is faith.

back to the question by jack, while i do not have the answer for the future..i can confidently answer for the present and say that i have fullest faith in God, in jana and in our relationship. whatever happens in the future, will happen..in the meantime, i am just enjoying my renewed faith in God and in love..and that for me, is enough.

a righteous return

after much consideration, i have decided to return to manpower..this, despite my initial skepticism and a hope that something with singtel may work out (oh yeah, i finally made contact with their hr department after like over 50 resumes of trying! and yes it actually exists! was quite tempted to plant a flag in their office when i was there for my interview!). i know all this may just turn out to be a political ploy and that i am just a missing piece on the chessboard..but my conscience is clear and i trust God to do the right thing for me.

my initial worries stemmed from a concern that my return will definitely spell the end for another person and from an arrogance that i was better than her. then i realised that i was wrong on both counts. firstly, my return has nothing to do with this other person and my being there does not mean for sure that she is doomed; if she is good and wishes to stay, no one can make her leave. secondly, i do not know her well enough to judge if i am indeed better; everything i have heard about her is from others.

now regarding my return, some people may say this is a will of God and others may ask, how do you know? well, this i say to you, "God will always provide..He provides options when we need them and He provides answers when we ask." God shows the way but the choice is always ultimately our own.

the Lord is my shepherd, i shall not be in want. He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
- Psalm 23:1-3

third time lucky?

there is this chinese saying that goes "a good horse does not eat the grass behind it". two times this year i've suffered setbacks based on this saying. now a third time has come calling...

should i tempt fate one more time?

my blessed life

it's funny that despite my second successive failed career move this year i feel so very at ease this time round as compared to the previous failure at react pte ltd. while i was depressed and confused when i left react, there is this feeling that all things are in control this time. praise God. and as if to reassure me that He is indeed watching over me, i received three phone calls for job opportunities on my very last day at emc; two of which were uninitiated by me (i.e. i did not apply for those positions). now even if all three calls turn out to be nothing more, i know that God is still there for me and it is only right that i keep faith in Him just as He is keeping faith in me.

i have always led a blessed and relatively smooth sailing life..but i have not always been appreciative of the things - big and small - that i have been blessed with; a loving and supportive family, great friends, a healthy body, a sensitive nature, a glib tongue among others. that is not even mentioning the various life threatening instances which i have encountered and came away unscathed. thank God as well for jana, without whom, i'd probably be still wandering aimlessly in life - mentally, emotionally and spiritually. what is amazing is all this started out with the simple intention to support jana spiritually (which was not as simple a step as it sounds!). recently, jana and i have started praying together and i can feel His hand working in our lives and our relationship all the time - making us stronger as individuals and as a couple and guiding us along. praise God. i know for sure, there will be obstacles up ahead which will put my faith to the test but just as sure, i know He will always reach out for me and welcome me back.

God works in ways which we can never comprehend but each and every one of His work is intended and a miracle in itself - no matter how small or ordinary. this is my testimony. praise God indeed. for indeed, i have been blessed.

don't believe the truth

this was the title of oasis' sixth studio album..back then, i thought it was one of the most confusing and crappy titles ever..i mean, if it was the truth, then what is there not to believe? then just yesterday, while i was having dinner with jana, the thought hit me..it actually makes sense!

(actually, "the thought" does not have anything to do with me having dinner with jana.."the thought" came because i was thinking..which does not mean i was not paying attention to her because it came to me while she went to buy her dinner..and then it disappeared because she came back with her dinner..and all my attention went to her because you know, i don't want to waste moments with her, thinking other thoughts..then i had trouble remembering "the thought" until now. hope that clarifies things for you. anyway, as i was saying...)

don't believe the truth..i don't know if oasis meant it this way but what "the thought" said to me was when you look beyond the surface meaning - which is basically about being ignorant or in denial - what you'd find is "a lie". put it this way, what is "a truth"? it has been defined as "a fact that has been verified" or "accuracy: the quality of being near to the true value" or "conformity to reality or actuality". from the definitions, we can see that "a truth" is subjective. it is a fact that STILL needs to be verified..verified by who or what and based on what? it is a quality of being near to the true value..who or what determines this "true value"? it is conformity to reality or actuality..whose definition of reality?

now "the thought" says, what "a truth" really is, is a belief that "something is not a lie" or "something to believe in"..so now when you look at the phrase again, it simply means, don't accept truths at face value. sales people always tell you "the truth" about their products but after you have bought their items, there are always other "truths" behind "the truth"...

ultimately, we all have our own perceptions of whether certain things which are true or not..these perceptions are formed by our thoughts, morals, beliefs, religion or experiences, things which are mostly unique to us; what may be true for me, may not necessarily apply to you..i'd like to end with another album title, "this is my truth tell me yours" (by the manic street preachers..a quite brilliant album really!).."true" indeed..

grace

was just wondering today how do people say grace before meals..i mean i've always seen eric and dear do it..but i've never actually asked what was spoken or prayed during grace..until today..

addy: hey so what do you actually say when you say grace?
eric: i thank God for the food He has put on the table and for His providence
addy: wah..you say so much in such a short time ar?
eric: say it in your heart la!

i can just imagine his "diao" look as he said that last part! hahaha..oh and while most of the conversation has been reproduced (as accurately as i can), he did actually use the word "providence" (with my limited vocab, how to make up such a cheem word right?)..which made my next question even more valid..afterall saying "providence" itself is already 2 seconds leh! but his response made sense i think! :)

i know some will be surprised at my sudden spirituality..but it has not been sudden at all (if you know me well enough)..i have always believed in God and was always waiting for the right time or person to lead me back to His house. it is so funny and amazing then that the person who brought me back into the house of God was the same one i was sharing the various moments in my life that i have been touched by the hand of God with..on the day we were touched by God's grace - 13th June 2008. in my darkest hour, He shone his light and blessed me with the best gift i can ever be given..and for that, He has shown that He does not forsake His children..and for that, i give Him praise and thanks..because he persevered in me even when i waivered..because he sent you so that i may see. thank you dear. thank you God.

so we will run altogether with hearts aflame
with a fire that can’t be tamed
our God all glory to Your name, Jesus

a moment's silence...

...to remember my uncle Richard..who passed away just yesterday after a courageous fight with cancer. he is now resting peacefully with God, free from all the pain and suffering of this world.

God, watch over my aunt and my two cousins, who have just lost a husband and a father. may You comfort them the way only You can. keep uncle Richard in their hearts even as they go through this time of mourning. help them be brave and give them strength, knowing that uncle Richard is far better place now. God, comfort also the families and friends who had the fortune to know uncle Richard when he was alive. may all who knew him remember his laughter, niceness and his courage even in his final days.

Amen.

enlightenment

"do to others what you would have them do to you"
- Matthew 7:12

"if someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also
- Matthew 5:38-42

i am sure lots of christians have heard the above two bible sayings before..and like me have wondered what on earth is going on. i mean, the first teaches you that if someone does bad to you, give it back to that person and the second tells you to be gracious and just take it! well, i have been thinking about sunday's sermon quite a bit and the answer suddenly hit me...

while they may seem to contradict each other, what i see is that in fact, the two sayings complement one another. cannot see how it is possible? well, sunday's sermon addressed the issue of sin, repentance and consequence and it is from understanding this that i found the answer...

essentially, Christ's teaching is all about the second saying..which is graciousness. so how does the first one come into the picture then? when you look at it straight on, it seems to mean that after someone strikes you on the right and left cheek, you should just give it back to him/her on both cheeks!

now apply the logic of sin, repentance and consequence and it makes perfect sense. the saying takes reference from "you" and not "others"..meaning it is not the same as "do to others what others do to you" (which takes reference from "others"). note also that it says "what you would have them ("others") do to you" and not God or Jesus do to you. what this says is you can be bad to "others", you repent and God will forgive you..but you still have to be prepared to face consequences from "others" (the people you offended). now when you tie this in with the "turn the other cheek" theory, both teachings encourages graciousness..but should we choose not to be so (be it in anger, jealousy or vengence etc.), then even if God forgives, we will still have to face judgement from Man for our ungraciousness...

enlightenment! :)

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addicted to a new scent.. "jana", simply oo-some!

things will work themselves out...

i feel happier and lighter (well metaphorically speaking! did i just use a big word there? that is so so sooo unlike me man!) these days..yeah, i am still jobless but things are really looking up..just this week alone, i have five interviews! i feel bad that i have to take time off to attend these because it also means that i have been cancelling meetings and abandoning justin and the k1 project..i am glad that he is understanding enough..though i know that it must be frustrating for him especially when we are nearing the climax of the event...

another reason why i am smiling wider (as wide as my "narrow" face allows of course!) these days is because of my princess! :) in april, my world basically collapsed on me when "the ex" walked away..i did not want to know why but yet i was not satisfied not knowing either. i guess that happens when you believed so whole-heartedly that that person was the one you were going to spend the rest of your life with. but life has this funny way of sneaking up on you and smacking you with a frying pan when you least expect it!

if you can believe it, i most definitely did not expect to get into a relationship so soon..much less give so much so willingly..but she has really changed my life and brightened it infinitely. she has stood by me quietly all this while, from the moments i was really down and depressed, over the breakup, over the joblessness and over spraining my back (i have yet to touch a football for 2 whole months already..even my heart surgery did not keep me down this long!)..but through those times, i had not seen her as anything more than a release. it was only recently that i found myself drawn to her amidst the numerous smses exchanged, the late nights on msn and my self-denial..it was just not possible! but then, incredulous as it sounds, all it took was one "friday that was not supposed to happen" to break my resistance (and i found out afterwards, hers as well!)..if it sounds drama, it is..but that is really how it happened..the feeling i got on that friday was so surreal, i kept telling myself it cannot possibly happen in real life except that it did! and despite all the doubts i casted in that instance, it just would not feel wrong...

now i just cannot imagine a life without her at any point of time..and i do not want to waste time imagining that happening either. if it is one thing i have learnt, it is to treasure each moment as it passes..else these moments (which incidentally only passes by once) will simply pass us by wasted...

God will always send love our way...just like he leads the thirsty to water..at the end of the day, it is our decision whether or not to let love into our hearts..and thank God, i am not thirsty anymore! :)

ps: the princess has requested that her identity be kept hidden for "security" and "image" purposes..(apparently) it is awfully "unglam" to make royal announcements over blogs and msn..in the meantime, please patiently wait your turn until the royal guards deliver the good news to your "peasant-villes"!

pps: find out more about motorsports in singapore and the k1 grand finale - the first event taking place on the f1 track - happening at the f1 pit building on 26-27th july. stand to win yourself a canon ixus digital camera when you take part in the k1 quiz. or if you are up for more attractive prizes, sign up for our pit crew challenge or k1 m-bassador search! visit us at www.k1.sg today!

fireworks

was at the fireworks display with leen and ling yesterday and it was beautiful! ^^ planting ourselves in the "front row", we had a completely unobstructed view throughout the 15-plus minutes display..for the first time, the fireworks were released simultaneously from three different locations along the marina bay vicinity, creating a colourful 3D effect which was really a sight to behold...

i have constantly wondered what the fuss over fireworks is about..well, last night was well worth the fuss!

thanks ling, for "dating" me out and for cheering me up.. :)

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寂寞 算不算也是拥有
现在的我坐在角落满间寂寞
是否 偶而你也会想我
你的笑容 你的双手 换他紧握

怎么 熟悉的声音逗留在耳朵
突然我低下了头 自己对着自己说

原来我也怕寂寞 因为不懂
温度是你给的手 回忆在彻夜守候
原来我也怕寂寞 现在才懂
闭上双眼的时候 遇见的是你留下的寂寞

原来我也怕寂寞 孤单游走
和寂寞紧紧相拥 想像你还爱着我

take my silence as your time and space..
we can make it together...