Friday, June 13, 2008

confronting my demons

there are certain things which i have successfully avoided for the last few months because simply, i just cannot bear to..at times, it is to the extent that it may seem unnecessary behaviour and selfish but when i am in that state, i do not really care. some of these occasions i absolutely refuse to turn up for are baby showers and weddings..really happy and blissful stuff which i had once not long ago, foreseen myself partaking in rather than being a spectator. and then there is that thing which i love but have since avoided like the plague..ktv. sounds trivial eh? but it is especially hard when she has been your regular ktv companion for the past few years and every song you sing has bits and pieces of her in them..her reaction to the song, her expression, her singing along..it kills me.

no more.

why should i allow someone who has chosen to walk out on me maintain control over me?

she does not deserve it.

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