my aunt writes too!

was just talking to my aunt edna about writing..she writes poetry too..and her stuff is really cool as well.. we both agreed that writing is not so much an expression of what we really feel about things in general..but it's more an expression of what we were feeling in a particular moment.. it's like if i had just written an angry poem, it doesn't mean that i am an angry person most of the time..it just means that i had anger to burn in that particular instance and it so reflects in my poetry.. though it may not seem so, poems are like entries in a diary..they help us remember those little moments in time when we put down our emotions into words.. the beautiful thing is, unlike diaries and blogs, the structure of poems mean that they can connect with a whole lot people and yet mean so many different things depending on their own interpretation of the poems..

today for those who are sick and tired of my poems, here's one which is written by my aunt (or at least i think it is!)..and for those who are sick of poems in general, oh well, bear with it then..

My dear child, do not despair
People say that life is unfair
But I say, we all have our share
of happiness and wealth, do not compare

Love will come, love will go
I don't want to say, I told you so
Memories of past, do not hold
Bright future about to unfold

All that is broken, let it be
Tears blind you, you can't see
Lock away the past, throw away the key
Jump for joy, yes, you are free

The world has so much to offer you
Grab all you can, not just a few
Open your heart, your life's renewed
Can you feel it, oh, isn't it thrill?

just a ghost

went for an interview with sistic today for a customer service position..thought it went pretty well..but throughout the interview i had this empty feeling inside like "what am i doing here?".. also realised today that sistic though an established brand, is a pretty small company..that's besides the point isn't it? the thing is since monday, my mind is pretty darn determined to get that ibm job..for those who do not know yet, despite my initial worries, my interview with anne, the ibm manager went well and i thought we really connected in terms of our expectations.. now it's just a matter of waiting for the second interview..anyway, with regards to the ibm position, my dad had this to say..

dad: i spoke with my friend and you have a pretty good chance..

addy: who did you speak to? what did you say?

dad: you needn't bother about that..i did not mention who you are..

what the!

false hopes..argh..no more no more..this better not be another case of the "fullerton blues"!

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in keeping with my writing mood, here's another one for the scrapbook..actually, i have lots of ideas on my mind which will probably appear here in the coming days..do protest if you've had enough yeah? ironic i should write this then realise "this is the chinese seventh month isn't it? ooo..freaky..

why do you hide in the shadows?
like you're still in my life but as a ghost
watching me from afar
while i wonder how you are
while i stumble and i fall and i wait for you
but no hand reaches out to raise this fool
why then show concern for me
yet pretend to be anonymous to me?
why do you even care
about my obstacles and how i fare?
walk away since you've chosen to leave
don't give me hope which i will not receive
don't keep me looking among the shadows
for the person who got too close
who followed her heart and fell in love
but chose to remain just a ghost

addy (26 july 2006)

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it's funny (how love works)

recently, quite a number of my friends are getting into this friend or lover situation..so this kind of came into my head..

it's funny how love works
hiding in the corners we never expect it to lurk
how friends can turn suddenly into lovers
how an ordinary hug can become something more precious
when saying goodbye makes you feel a sense of loss
glancing at the phone regularly to check for missed calls
but there is a line drawn, so how can it be
that friends can turn into lovers so easily?
did someone accidentally step over the line?
or was this part of the plan the whole time?
that things would end up this way
how your eyes would meet, and you'd both feel the same way
funny how love sneaks up on us sometimes
it's like cupid fired his arrows while we weren't looking behind
of course, you can walk away and you can reject it
or you can be loved if you just accept it
it's funny, this wasn't supposed to happen
but since when did love ever need a logical explanation?

addy (25 july 2006)

don't take this as my advice..just take it as something nice..

say what?

this must be the funniest thing i've heard in a long while..

my father to my aunt (in a deadpan voice):

i am very adaptable to change

say what? (?!?!?!)

coming from the same person who told me "for what?" (or words to that effect) when the pager first came out..then who told me not to waste money on a handphone because he was (ironically) contented with the pager.. that is not even mentioning the fact that he still isn't familiar with and refuse to learn the basic uses of the internet..

and those are just the more "memorable" examples..we are talking about the same sort of change here..right dad?

cough cough

Just a few short updates,

1. Caught pirates of the caribbean with karen on sunday..now i'm like so in love with johnny depp! i think karen prefers orlando bloom though..hmm..anyway the movie was really cool..until the end which really got us "huh? what the!"


2. Went for a few interviews over the past few days - M1, SingTel, and Strategic Partners (whoever they are!)..have two more interviews lined up for next week - IBM and Sistic..

I don't really know if i am really ready to start work but i've reached a stage where i've had enough of moping and feeling sorry for myself..cuz even if i stand still here and cry, the world carries on turning..the cruel reality is, time waits for no one..so this is what i'm doing, moving on.. Anyway, i've had to reject SingTel because the pay was crappy..though the more critical consideration is that i have the IBM interview lined up and SingTel wanted an answer by today which really isn't too possible.. Apparently timing isn't my strongest point these days (in most areas of my life).. But i trust that God will watch over me and guide me and something will work out soon.. Anyway, back to the updates..

3. Managed to postpone my reservist till december so that's one thing off my mind and it's all clear for my job hunt..

4. Still coughing..two and half weeks after i fell ill! how can! oh well, at least i have the jinx for company! think she caught the cold from me at cold-play! :P

jinxy n i at coldplay

5. Been creating lots of impromptu rhymes in my head and i get so carried away thinking of line after line that i forget everything after that! That's why it's called impromptu i suppose..anyway, here's an example..

i've been creating lots of impromptu rhymes of late
just these few random thoughts running through my head
some make sense, others not so much so
but line after line they just follow
until i reach a point when i lose track
that's when i realise i cannot even get the first line back
so i leave it, i let it be
and i think of another rhyme, and i forget it again, completely!

6. Lastly, my computer is back! and that's why i'm here! :)

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Another one of addy's unquotable quotes (don't try this at home!)
"Why settle for one fish in the entire ocean when you can find a mermaid?"