Something out of nothing

Wrote this yesterday morning..Kind of came out after blogging about it the previous day, which explains some of the familiar lines..

now here is my life, here is my pain
passing my days without sun nor rain
ticking clock, tick, ten seconds later tock
my mind seems dead, maybe just clogged
the dirty orangey fluorescent lights
a faint glow in this neverending night
i fight, i retaliate, i cannot lose
even if i lose my pride, and get bruised
this battle i will not give up, just push on
victory is in sight now, i'll hold on
to whatever little i have, i'll keep safe
to whatever heart there is left, i'll be brave
i take a breath, air ventilated with mold
reminisces of years circulating within this hell hole
not long now, i close my eyes and count to ten
the end is near, i can feel it in my hands
not long now, soon i'll be free
of these god forsaken chains, to be who i need to be

addy 07 dec 2004

To keep up with my current ORD mood, i did up a a whole's schedule pinpointing the public holidays, my exam dates, potential off days and i've come to the conclusion that, it's still a bladdy long way to go! Oh gosh..another thing i did which i wished i didn't do so afterwards! Oh well, no need for regrets..It does feel nice to see the bright yellow highlighted words flashing out at the end of the year "ORD" though!

On a personal note, in response to a blog i just read..I would like to say that you do not need to be a Christian to believe in the magic of Christmas..Just as you do not need to be Chinese to celebrate Chinese New Year or a Singaporean to celebrate National Day..Bear in mind this, as long as there are people who believe, there's a spirit that we all can share in..And the magic of Christmas is, it's recognised as a time for giving and sharing..Life need not always be lived logically..If you apply logic to everything, then you are in for a long miserable experience in life..As for the commercial value of Christmas, it is the same as saying that there's no point in Christmas just because you're not a Christian..It's all superficial..Just remember, it may not make your own day and you may not believe in it..But if you can make someone else's day better by wishing them "Merry Christmas", will you keep happiness to yourself just because of your pride and your disbelief? As a parting note, think about it this way, take a day important to yourself, for example your birthday or an important graduation, others may not find that same day as important as you do..But wouldn't it be nice if someone dropped an sms or give you a phone call to send you his or her regards? My point is..Don't always make a difference to yourself, make a difference in your friends' lives so that they will in turn make a difference in yours!

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... ...addy is currently obsessed with the new Band Aid 20 song "Do They Know It's Christmas?" (featuring Bono, Chris Martin, Robbie Williams, Dido, Joss Stone, Busted, Sugababes, Feeder, Snow Patrol, Fran Healy (from Travis), Justin Hawkes (from The Darkness), Will Young, The Thrills and many more!) - Please buy the original CD single ($10 at gramaphone or hmv) and feed the children of Africa! More info on the artists and the mission of Band Aid on the website..