walk on

cheryl asked me today which would i choose, to love or to be loved? initial reaction for me will be "to love" unconditionally and whole-heartedly..but when i think of it..whatever i may say, this answer will change over time in a way or another to "to be loved"..because it is human nature and we are selfish creatures..we take more than we give..and likewise we love almost always in hope of being loved in return..i know i am guilty of that..

i really miss the feeling of pampering someone..even though it might have been lonely shopping alone sometimes..it made me happy to know you would smile when you received whatever i got..whether you liked it or not, that's another matter! you can't do it with friends can you? i mean you can buy your friends stuff once or twice, but if you did that regularly, your friends'd tell you off "i'm not your girlfriend leh! you siao ar?" or think you're being gay (depending on their gender)..i know i'd freak out if a friend kept getting me gifts, nice as it may sound!

hai..i miss the feeling of sneaking a little snuggle and the closeness of a hug..

christmas is coming..i think it is high time to cheer up..even if i cannot attain the stage of "merriness"..though i do not honestly expect to receive any gifts this year..well because i've not been a really good boy that's why!

what would your answer be then? to love or to be loved?

and if the darkness is to keep us apart
and if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
and if your glass heart should crack
and for a second you turn back
oh no be strong..

and i know it aches
how your heart it breaks
you can only take so much
walk on..

you've got to leave it behind..
- u2

snippets

1. my dad's birthday at soup restaurant in changi airport terminal 2
- 12 november 2006


2. no "laughing" matter
- the definition of keke

- commonly used by men who pretend to be cute Japanese children on the internet

Player2: llolz pnwned keke
Player3: omg stop it :((((((

- a vagina, the women's reproductive organ

a girl has a keke and a boy has a peepee.

more definitions on urban dictionary, here!

3. my decision

after much contemplation, i've decided to take up the position with manpower singapore over the one offered by the fullerton. it was tough considering that the fullerton had stronger branding and will definitely make my resume look more impressive. but i made my decision based on the learning opportunities that will be available to me and manpower's potential. whatever it is, i'm determined to make this decision the right one! :)

4. jarvis




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5. dim sum dollies

went for the dim sum dollies on friday evening with karen, maurice and christine. still not as good as the first two installments of the dim sum dollies. the appearance of the parking pontianaks was a real good laugh though! :)

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shifting through boxes
looking through the past
relationships that didn't make it
friendships that did not last
familiar names
but so many lost along the way
letters, christmas cards
they once remembered my birthday
of those who remain
we're no longer that close
the innocence of yesteryears
is but a friendly ghost
words betray us
we were supposed to stick together
but we drifted apart
even in perfect weather
but that's just life
bits and pieces we're left with
and if we retaliate
we lose our belief
every envelope recreates
another street in memory lane
even if i could turn back time
i know, nothing would have changed

AD (14th july 2002)

even though we did not reach forever..thank you for once loving me with all your heart..i promise to you that we will move on..and whatever the future holds, only the future knows..just know this, where so many have failed, we have managed to stick together throughout all this time, as lovers and as friends..and i am always grateful and blessed for your companionship! :)

thank you..

shine on

please don't cry
you know i'm leaving here tonight
before i go i want you to know
that there will always be a light

and if the moon had to runaway
and all the stars didn't wanna play
don't waste the sun on a rainy day
the wind will soon blow it all away, ya

so many times i planned
to be much more than who i am
and if i let you down
i will follow you 'round until you understand

that if the moon had to runaway
and all the stars didn't wanna play
don't waste the sun on a rainy day
the wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya

when the days all feel the same
don't feel the cold or wind or rain
everything will be okay
we will meet again one day
and i will shine on, for everyone
- jet

silent all these years..

from hello friend to affectionate wifey
from a simple goodbye to "will you miss me?"
it all sounds too surreal for it to be true
he didn't believe it and neither should you!
from occasional to nightly talks
but it was difficult getting her out, even for a walk
he wasn't allowed to call her at home
unless of course she was standing by the telephone..

it seems just like yesterday..but it cannot be..
because this happened more than 5 years ago now!
of course, these days she doesn't need to stand by the telephone!
and in case you're wondering, we were still on pagers back then!
yes, that's how long it has been..
how quietly time has flown us by..

can't sleep..

was it always wrong from the start?

move on addy..or you'll get left behind..

but the tears keep on falling..

wah lao eh!

one whole year and 100 over resumes later..not a single interview for any marketing position..temporary, contract, permanent, administrator, assistant, executive..nothing!

now..TWO permanent marketing job OFFERS! yes..not even interviews..OFFERS! and the best part is i did not send out resume for either!

how la how?

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sometimes i miss you..other times, i just turn and look the other way..

job street (dot) com

there's a little spring in my little step
a little dance and a tappity tap
a new destination to fly my flag
a new adventure plotted on the map
but i hold the celebrations, i dare not be too glad
until the day the ink dries and it becomes fact
- addy (10 november 2006)

to be continued..

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the following is taken from an advertisement..

are you ready to fight at the frontiers of technology?
more like "are you ready to fight AGAINST the frontiers of technology!"

masters of technology
given 386 computers, you are expected to produce pentium results, of course you will grow to be a master of technology! it is all in "the plan" i tell you!

cutting edge talent
did i ever mention that the tools and equipment used are mostly at least 10 years old? sorry i exaggerate, some are at least 20 years old! as the saying goes, the older you are, the wiser..not so sure if it applies to "sharpness" though!

precise and self assured
precise in timing our breakfast, lunch and tea breaks and self assured enough not to get caught!

it's a career like nothing on earth
it sure is out of this world alright!

indigestion

i am so disoriented these days, it's so not funny..i want to do something but i stop myself..i want to express my anger but i stop myself..i want to let it out but i stop myself..and i just end up being so frustrated that there is no outlet..all because as others keep telling me that i'm too nice and soft hearted..

i don't want to be this way anymore!!! aaaaahhh..hai..

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an interesting conversation with my spw nuer:

a dot . says: and i'm from planet forever eighteen!!
jasmango duckie! says: you are forever 18, come to think of it
a dot . says: huh? why do you say that?
jasmango duckie! says: i dunno.. you exude a youthful exuberance
a dot . says: haha i do? are you saying i am childish?
jasmango duckie! says: nope
jasmango duckie! says: you're just forever 18

in case you're wondering..this conversation started with us discussing which planet raymond was from! lol..

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i've been chatting quite a bit with my korean colleague recently..no, i do not speak korean..she speaks english! :P which reminds me, i should really stop referring to her as "korean colleague"..makes her sound like an anonymous! my bad..it's just that she has recently "grown" her name so it's rather long and tedious to pronounce..anyway it's..regina zoe hammie moon..told you it was long! sometimes i address her in short form "rzhm" which makes her sound mysterious like some secret agent..other times i just call her "silly"! oh and did i mention that she is really nice? no? well, she is really nice :)


she reads this by the way, so i had to say that! :P

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jinxisaurus craving penguin:
rar! -bites-
jinxisaurus:
-_- waasssssuuuuuppppp!

q: what do you call a really flustered and depressed jinxisaurus?
a: a jinxisaurus vex!
it's really not funny ar? :(

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all day i'm doing fine
cos there are things to pass the time
smoke a cig and drink some tea
watch a programme on tv
i just don't care where you are now
cos i'm sorted out, and how
i've got it all set up you see
but when i close my eyes it happens to me
you're a nightmare
and you've made it all wrong
you're a nightmare to me
oh oh you're a nightmare
and i just can't see
why you should keep on happening to me
- pulp

write the blog!

here is the story about THE MOST AWESOME SENSE OF DEJA VU EVER as experienced by addy..it was supposed to be a brand new blog entry..but reading the first lines, he know he saw this before..somehow he knew what the entry was about..who it was about..and how it ended without even reading it through..truly amazing..

a witness who wished to be known only as "jinxy" had this to say when interviewed,

"wah liao!"
when pressed for further comments, she could only offer a

"FREAKY!"
before she turned green (as a dinosaur) with shock..
and that was the story about THE MOST AWESOME SENSE OF DEJA VU EVER!

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this blog entry was kindly brought to you by jinxisaurus "rar!"

writer's blog

wanted to blog something..but i got a block..

sianz..

anyway, just something my korea colleague mentioned to me..damn cute..
"you are not supposed to eat or drink along the streets in singapore"
cute right? heh..it amused me :)