This Coming Monday..

I'm having mixed feelings towards this coming monday..on one hand, it'd be nice to start work again..on the other, just thinking of the possibility about 14hr days and the pub assignment kinds of put me off a little. I know most of friends are envious, "paid to cheong leh!"..well, i ain't no cheongster and second hand smoke just ain't my thang so.. But ningy is right..this is the job i have been waiting for throughout the last few months and now that i've gotten it, i should move forwards and not wonder so much..afterall, i had been so enthusiastic about it during the 2 rounds of interviews and i was so upset when i thought i screwed up the second round so why worry so much now? I told her it was probably just nerves, which is true..it's just this whole thing of starting afresh in a brand new environment and a whole new industry that is freaking me out at the moment..for someone who likes to be in control of his surroundings, stepping into the unknown is just not "normal"! In a way, i guess i'm still in control, in that i chose to be in the marketing line..it's just like we don't really know what we are going to dream at night before we take that first step to get into bed. For all you know after monday, all i want to do is "stay in bed" and carry on living my dream..