Best Days

It was quite a fruitful weekend..went over to melvin(a)'s place on saturday evening for a 2 hour tennis session with the rest of the guys..slowly getting back the hang of the game again..though i must say the picking ball part is pretty irritating! got sun burnt for all my troubles..

Went for church on sunday morning and the preaching this week was pretty entertaining..the priest said that it is no sin to admire Dolly Parton (for her ample bossom) or Brad Pitt (even if you're a guy!) because they are also God's creations..in fact, he enjoys staring at them! haha! but..just as long as we can differentiate between admiration and lust..how true how true..i left church early though, to go to ang mo kio for a sunday morning kickabout organised by patrick - which i didn't really enjoy..more because i had too little sleep the night before than because of the company..but after all the days spent at home..a little outdoors is very much welcomed anytime! ended the morning with an "all-improved" sun tan and a bad feeling about leaving church early -sheepish look- in the evening, met celia for the Singapore Lyric Opera's "A Halloween Concert: Tales Of The Supernatural World" which was held at the Victoria Concert Hall..even though i do not know how to appreciate opera at all, i found it a rather eye opening and enjoyable change..hey cel, thanks for the ticket and the company! :)

Last but not least, i've already gotten a few requests for planning CNY 2006!! haha..which is like urm..more than 2 months away! all i can say is i'll try to arrange a date asap..no promises though..cuz i still don't know where i'll be working next year! so i guess you guys just have a wait a little longer! hehe..

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"other people turn around and laugh at you..if you said that these are the best days of our lives.."

Featured song is taken off the album "The Great Escape" by Blur.

What The World Needs Now Is Love

So the Gahmen wants more people to get married young..and they want these young couples to have more children..and so they introduce stuff like Romancing Singapore and baby bonuses and longer maternity leaves..but apparently they forgot something..something right at the root of the problem..they forgot to inform the other various institutions about their lofty plans for the country! sure there is the extra bonus and the extended leave but what is the use of the incentives if you don't get to use it? i'm sure we have heard of companies not hiring girls if they are planning to get married or to start a family soon..or what about the increasing popularity of contract based jobs? how are young couples going to start a family if they face the possibility that their companies are not going to renew their contracts in a few years time? will a few hundred dollars bonus take care of that?

In addition, did the Gahmen inform the universities as well? how do they expect couples to start young when the universities are suffocating love out of its students like its an unwanted virus? and how is love supposed to blossom and be sustained in such an intensed environment - which incidentally is supposed to prepare our youths for an equally intensed society? the following was taken off my friend's (who is still studying in a local university) blog..

yes we're drifting apart. just like how the older people forsee, because they have been through this stage. it is common, very common in fact. so common that it's the norm already. sorry but i really cannot skip my trainings and events because they are my commitments, and i am responsible for them and the consequences in one way or another.

i cant really do anything about it, because exams are just around the corner. i dont want to make a firm decision, because the workload makes me numb and i cant think properly. i dont want to face this, because i dont have the time to. not now. exams are paramount for the next few weeks. please understand.

Neither baby bonuses nor longer maternity leaves nor paternity leave nor any obscene amount of money can help in romancing singapore as long as the root of the problem remains..and this problem is firmly rooted into the grounds and foundation of our highly pressurised and intensed society which shows no mercy and takes no prisoners..and even if you had a degree you may just have to settle for a diploma holder's job..and why? because 1) you have no relevent job experience, 2) you have no first class-honours or in my case 3) yours is a part time degree from a foreign university! because of this wild paper chase..many young relationships end before they can fully blossom..many youths prefer to stay commitment-free to concentrate on "more important" things (i.e. a good job, promotions, first class honours, masters..)..and this is just the beginning of the race which is not about to end too soon..Gahmen want more babies? maybe when we are nearer the finishing line..in about 10 years time..after we get our third promotion!!

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"what the world needs now is love sweet love..it's the only thing that there's just too little of..what the world needs now is love sweet love..no not just for some but everyone.."

You've Got A Friend

Thank you to (in order of appearance) my mum (for the macdonald's big breakfast), my bro (for the tie), karen (for accompanying me the whole afternoon though she has her essay to rush), kenneth (for organising the dinner), jasmin, yili, jessica, yaling, chris, chantel and jingxian (for your presence at the dinner, your excellent company and of course, the cards and presents)..most importantly, thanks to all the above-mentioned and all those who sms-ed me birthday greetings for making today an extraordinary event for an otherwise ordinary 26 year old! What will i be without you guys? :)







Cheers!
addy

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"you just call out my name..and you know wherever i am..i'll come running..to see you again..winter spring or fall..or you got to do is call..and i'll be there..you've got a friend.."

Let There Be Love

Just came back from church..yes church! today's sermon was on the Good News..and it is so true that most christians and catholics listen and speak of the Good News but do not practise it! a truely good christian or catholic lead by example..they set the example for other non-believers so that others may learn from them and appreciate what Christ has done for them..true, we are just human and we are all prone to temptations and sins..but it cannot always be used as an excuse for the things we can do to make a difference but yet not do so..all it shows is an empty and artificial faith..as the saying goes - "action speaks louder than words"..i know that i do not always show the right way either but i try my best to make a difference to the people around me or whom i meet..it's not what we must or must not do, sometimes it's what your heart desires..it's just like the NKF appealing for donations, they tug at your heart strings through pictures and stunts just to get you to donate..so it is like that every day..the only difference is that these "pictures and stunts" are happening around you..so do you want to make a difference and live the Good News of the Lord? the ultimate choice lies with you and you alone..

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"i hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly stream..suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our dreams..let there be love.."

Featured song is taken off the album "Don't Believe The Truth" by Oasis.

Everybody's Changing

Today is just the second day of my block leave and already i'm bored! yeah..it may sound weird but i'm seriously bored of doing nothing..bored to the extent that i've already gotten yaling's birthday present - which incidentally is still more than 2 months away!! maybe i'll get kenneth's present next..and then karen's..by the time i get the presents (covered in a little dust and cobweb) to them, it may look like i went shopping at the salvation army store!

Met yili for lunch..as usual she accuses me of abandoning her..sheesh..anyway, she was suggesting that i take a holiday while i'm still on leave which is a good idea but..go with who la? maybe i'll join her and her friends to vietnam in december..hmm..

Last but not least..i'd like to wish celia a really wonderful birthday!!

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"so little time..try to understand that i'm..trying to make a move just to stay in the game..i try to stay awake and remember my name..but everybody's changing..and i don't feel the same.."

Featured song is taken off the album "Hopes And Fears" by Keane.

Who Put The Weight Of The World On My Shoulders?

Met up with yaling, kenneth and aileen yesterday at plaza singapura for dinner and movie..i reached earliest and as is my habit, i roamed the place and got myself a Flesh Imp t-shirt..i liked the white one with blue trimmings but remembering what karen said about my wardrobe being filled with white shirts, i took the brownish one instead..it was my first time in that boutique and i must say that their designs are pretty nice and the staff was friendly..dinner was pizza hut which was surprisingly good..aside from the fact that the garlic bread took a surprisingly long time to arrive, it's been quite some time since i've last tasted such a standard of pizza at pizza hut..the stuffed crust was nice and crispy without it being too tough..but aileen ate very little leh..i think i should be nice and stop calling her dumboleena! :X

The movie, Into The Blue, on the other hand was downright disappointing for me..instead of being an adventure story, it was more a Discovery channel cum horror flick (what with all the shark bites and shooting!)..argh! that coupled with the totally meaningless and pointless storyline made it a waste of time and money! i hate such shows..maybe it would have been more worthwhile had i agreed to watch the andy lau show instead! the only plus point was maybe paul walker..the acting wasn't spectacular but he just had that screen presence about him i guess..



After the show, i trudged down to HMV heeren due mainly to my bad luck with buses than because of intention..bought the Goal! soundtrack - more for the three Oasis songs than for the soundtrack as a whole..but after listening to it, i think it's pretty good..

On the whole, one new flesh imp shirt, one satisfactory dinner, one lousy show and one above average cd = a lot of money spent! goodness!

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"who put the weight of the world on my shoulders? who put the lies in the truth that you sold us..lost behind a silver screen are all the things you could have been to us.."

Featured song is by Oasis taken off the soundtrack "Goal!".

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Come In My Dear

one of my really rare muses..written for karen during one of her down days..it's all pretty cliche but i liked the flow and rhyme of it..

"come in my dear"

come in my dear
where i will keep you safe
from the winds which will catch you cold
or the sun which may burn your skin
with me, you are safe within

by my side my dear
where i will give you strength
when you are ill in health
or when you are weakened by others
with me, we are stronger

in my heart my dear
where i will keep you loved
the cruel world may beat at the door
evil spirits may chew at your weaknesses
with me, we will be fearless

come in my dear
by my side my dear
in my heart my dear
with me, you will always be
my dear

addy (26 july 2005)

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I Will Remember You

Three days in and the sadness is just beginning to drain itself away..or so i believe..deep down though, it's still kind of hard..but i'm not bitter..

In fact, i've got to thinking..this isn't THAT bad..it's not like those sort of pots-and-pans-throwing-fits separation that we see in the movies..nor is it the normal now-that-we're-not-together-there's-no-reason-to-be-friends type..on the contrary, we are still talking..still making plans for our sports afternoons..still irritating each other (!!)..the only difference is probably the emotional part..the part where i'm answerable to her and she's answerable to me..the part which links couples together as well as potentially pull couples apart..personally, i feel that now without that emotional pressure, we may just get to know each other better..little things which we may usually find silly "i only took geography until secondary 2" are easier to say now..rather than arguing over "what time to meet tomorrow and what to do", we can discuss her report like proper friends now..even if she cannot meet me the whole of next week, it's ok now..maybe this is just what we need to re-discover the romance..or not..only time will tell..but we both strongly believe that "if God wills us to be together..then no matter our far we may go, someday we will still find each other.." just like how we found each other (again!) 4 years 8 months 2 weeks and 2 days ago..

All i can say is..let's just walk this journey and see where the road takes us..we may lose each other along the way..we may become sporting kakis or even best buddies..we may become enemies..or we may even end up married!! for now though, if you ever need someone to talk to, discuss your work with, a shoulder to rely on, take out your frustrations on, teach you how to ride a bicycle or thrash you in table-tennis, badminton and bowling (hehe), i'm always just a phone call/ sms/ msn away..

So no more tears..here's to our happy ending..and here's to a whole new beginning! Cheers babe!

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"true love is frozen in time..i'll be your champion and you will be mine..i will remember you.."

Featured song is taken off the album "Heart In Motion" by Amy Grant.

Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry) - Craig David

In my relationship i always thought that i was right and that she was wrong..but something eugene said to me made me change my outlook towards this..we always want to take and take from our partners, we expect them to accomodate us..but before we take, we must learn to give as well..treasure them like how you would want to be treasured..love them like how you would want to be loved..NOT just wait around and hope the other party makes the first move..on all accounts, i admit, hands up, i was guilty, have been guilty and am guilty..

"That's when you turned and said to me..i don't care babe who's right or wrong..i just don't love you no more.."

But every step we take in this life is a lesson..and this is just another harsh lesson i must learn, God be my guide and accept..there are just no rights or wrongs in a relationship..there are always two sides to a story, two sides to a coin and three to a triangle..it's sometimes down to perspective and how individuals communicate and connect with each other..i guess this time, the connection broke down..

"Rain outside my window pouring down..what now, you're gone, my fault, i'm sorry..feeling like a fool cos i let you down/ now it's too late to turn it around..i'm sorry for the tears i've made you cry..i guess this time it really is goodbye..you made it clear when you said..i just don't love you no more.."

To you i say, don't be sorry..if you're sorry, then we are both as sorry..let's just treasure what our time together has brought us and learn from our experiences and mistakes..only through this process can we live a fuller life and learn to appreciate true love when it finally shows up..here's to you and me..God bless!

cheers!
addy

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Featured song is taken off the album "The Story Goes..." by Craig David.

Red Eyes And Tears - B.R.M.C.

On thursday, i was finally cleared by my doctor at CGH, desmond - my right eye is perfectly fine and in full working condition..but as fate would have it, the very next day, i came down with conjuctivitis (infection) in the right eye again!! it didn't help that the GP i went to and the doctor at the A&E at CGH were completely clueless..so an appointment with dr desmond was arranged for saturday morning..the thing about desmond is that he created a friendly atmosphere rather than a serious doctor-patient relationship..for instance, this is what he first said to me on saturday..

D : I thought i told you i didn't want to see you ever again!
A : I also don't want it to be like that wat..

but you get the point, he's a pretty cool guy..anyway, saturday's appointment was pretty quick..the negative thing about it was, i have been grounded from my hongkong trip - which i have been looking forward to, considering that the last time i was out of the country was way back after my o' levels! but well, what to do? doctor's orders..so instead of letting the plane ticket go to waste, i gave it to gabriel..yes, gave! it's not the giving part i minded, it's more of the disappointment of missing out on the trip..but life goes on and God will keep me strong..

So now, i'm on a whole week's mc and i cannot go anywhere because the conjuntivitis is contagious..as if to prove its contagious-ness, the infection has spread to my left eye (thaaanks hor!)..i'm feeling a bit fluey..and i'm tired all the time..maybe i'll just take this time to finish up the harry potter book..hmm..

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"red eyes and tears no more for you my love i fear..no more fear no more fear..i'm in love.."

Featured song is taken off the album "B.R.M.C." by Black Rebel Motorcycle Club

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Other albums addy is listening to:

Who We Are Instead - Jars Of Clay
Leaders Of The Free World - Elbow