Sunday, June 20, 2004

happy father's day dad!

today is father's day and i know like always there will be no celebration, no special lunch..it's going to be just like every sunday..another ordinary sunday..there was a period of time i despised my dad..but the passing of a friend's father made me think about a lot of things..

i started to recollect times when i (a young boy then) used to pretend to be asleep so that my dad will carry me from the car to the house..times when my dad will drive around singapore searching every macdonald's so that i will not miss the figurine that came with the happy meals that week (trust me, there were very FEW macdonald's outlets back then!)..times when he would make the effort to drive my family to diamaru every weekend (shopping centres? see macdonald's..) for a walk-around though i end up making him buy me a toy nearly every time..times when he was probably tired but still took my brother and i down to the field to kick a ball..and times when he would take us for yearly tours be it genting highlands or australia..as a young boy growing up, i never appreciated such acts..these were supposed to be done! period. but now i realise after so many years spent misunderstanding my dad (i still cannot understand him till this day some things he does!), that even though he don't show it obviously enough..he still does it quietly for the family..just like even though we're not that close these days, he still makes the effort to know what drinks i prefer and makes sure the fridge is filled with it (most times he gets it wrong though!)..okay, so he can be a miser and stubborn at times, but no one is perfect!

to all my friends, all i can say is before you start saying your parents don't understand you, think of the times when at least they tried to..

and to my friends whose dads have passed away (you know who you are), instead of treating this day as a day of moaning, take this day to remember and treasure the memories, daddy wouldn't like to see his little girl crying now would he? stay strong like i know you girls are! -hugs-

last but not least, to my dad..i know you are probably not going read this but i'll just leave it here anyway..i appreciate all you've done for me and the family and i feel blessed that you are my dad..even though you can be unreasonable at times, i know that deep down you do care..from the bottom of my heart i love you and happy father's day!

god bless!
cheers!
adrian

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