transition...

how do you blog about events which have messed up your life on what was seemingly a smooth sailing journey without sounding too childish and bitter? you cannot, really..though it is all about perspective and the side you are taking...and since you are reading my blog, i take it that you are on my side..right? but i shall not dwell into details here because, much as i love to whine, it has been a while and i'd rather let things pass..it has not been easy and it still is tough but i am pulling through..surely.

on the work front, i am in between jobs at the moment (which is a nicer way to say that i quit my job and cannot find another yet!). on the other hand, i have been kept busy with some freelance copywriting which i am grateful to bryan for and working with another friend on a major national project..which i am currently unable to divulge further details on. these are really exciting times ahead but the fact remains, i am unemployed..and there is only that long my optimism (or funds for that matter) can last me.

on a lighter note, i applied for a deferment from my reservist to aid in my job hunt..and mindef (being the all important civil service it is), sent me a sms asking me to send in supporting documents before they can process my deferment. like, what "supporting documents" can i produce? maybe i'll just write them a letter..

Dear Sir/Madam,

I am really really really unemployed..REALLY! As evidence of my unemployment, I have attached 5 pictures of me 1) at home sending out resumes, 2) eating instant noodles (at home of course) and 3) wandering the streets aimlessly (near my home of course) for each weekday of the week.

For your kind consideration.

Best regards,
Adrian

PS: I have also taken the liberty to cc: you on every single job application I am sending henceforth.

越爱越难过

说 说你为什麼
为什麼要走
说你为何要分手

别拖 求你别软弱
求你说出口
分手的理由

但你却 拖 拖 拖
拖到什麼时候
如果要走却又为何停留
请你别 拖 拖 拖
大声的说出口
请你要痛就痛给我个快活

如果说你要走
我不会留
我不去管以后
然后我们说清楚
一句话就够
如果说你要走
我不会留
我不去管以后
多麼痛
多麼的难过
别越爱越难过

然后连话都不说
继续沉默
连朋友都没的作
为了什麼
然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我
就算了吧
坏人我来作

de-mo

suffering from a severe lack of motivation these days..both at work and well, in general..this demotivation i feel every morning makes my time at manpower (not the ministry) seems like heaven! (i know, the grass is always greener on the other side..well, my point exactly, it really is!) besides the severe lack of lighting in the office, there is a severe lack of organisation..but i shall not bore you (or myself) with the details!

to make things worse, i have gotten numb to my retail therapy (how's that for severe demotivation!)..i know, life is so much more than money but wait, you just have to hear my incredible purchases this time round! you must be thinking, 50 cds right? hah! well, on top of that...i've gotten myself...

a pair of oakley shades!

ok, so it's not such a big deal even though they are expensive and overrated and really expensive and did i mention totally overrated?..but there's more..there's a new..

car!

yep..why on earth do i need a car when my dad hardly drives his is really beyond me! it is, so don't "huh?" me! i'd just "huh!" you back! my initial intention was to lighten my dad's financial burden but apparently now he wants to keep his car so..anyway, i feel nothing towards this either..

ironically, the only pain which i've felt in the last few weeks (besides being hit by a 7th year terminal rash of the heart) is a back sprain which kept me at home the whole of last week! now that was F-R-E-A-K-ing painful! i had to be stretchered to an ambulance and sent to hospital, spent 4 hours there and took 2 injections (one in the ass, yes seriously) before i could even sit! (yes, you are right, i am just showing off here! that obvious huh?) all for a week's mc..which wasn't really worth it considering that there was a public holiday on thursday (i am calculative!)..and oh yeah, that other fact that i virtually worked from home the whole of the week as well! sucks right?

so now, as it always seem to happen to me, i'm at another crossroads..waiting to be hit by a car..demotivated..demoralised..and (for a period of time) demobilised!

notes:
1) addy did not actually buy 50 cds. nearly. but almost does not count!
2) addy thinks that the pain caused by the back sprain made the injection in the ass feel like a mosquito bite.
3) addy did not know he got injected into the ass until the nurse said "i'm injecting the painkiller into your backside and it will hurt!"
4) addy realises now that the back is a really important part of the body. it is incredibly tough to put on your socks or underwear with a bad back!

彩虹

we were probably the two most "ang mo pai" people i know who are most crazy about ktv...

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白...

Farewell

numb me from all emotion
and set me free
if this is your solution
then i hope you are happy...