de-mo

suffering from a severe lack of motivation these days..both at work and well, in general..this demotivation i feel every morning makes my time at manpower (not the ministry) seems like heaven! (i know, the grass is always greener on the other side..well, my point exactly, it really is!) besides the severe lack of lighting in the office, there is a severe lack of organisation..but i shall not bore you (or myself) with the details!

to make things worse, i have gotten numb to my retail therapy (how's that for severe demotivation!)..i know, life is so much more than money but wait, you just have to hear my incredible purchases this time round! you must be thinking, 50 cds right? hah! well, on top of that...i've gotten myself...

a pair of oakley shades!

ok, so it's not such a big deal even though they are expensive and overrated and really expensive and did i mention totally overrated?..but there's more..there's a new..

car!

yep..why on earth do i need a car when my dad hardly drives his is really beyond me! it is, so don't "huh?" me! i'd just "huh!" you back! my initial intention was to lighten my dad's financial burden but apparently now he wants to keep his car so..anyway, i feel nothing towards this either..

ironically, the only pain which i've felt in the last few weeks (besides being hit by a 7th year terminal rash of the heart) is a back sprain which kept me at home the whole of last week! now that was F-R-E-A-K-ing painful! i had to be stretchered to an ambulance and sent to hospital, spent 4 hours there and took 2 injections (one in the ass, yes seriously) before i could even sit! (yes, you are right, i am just showing off here! that obvious huh?) all for a week's mc..which wasn't really worth it considering that there was a public holiday on thursday (i am calculative!)..and oh yeah, that other fact that i virtually worked from home the whole of the week as well! sucks right?

so now, as it always seem to happen to me, i'm at another crossroads..waiting to be hit by a car..demotivated..demoralised..and (for a period of time) demobilised!

notes:
1) addy did not actually buy 50 cds. nearly. but almost does not count!
2) addy thinks that the pain caused by the back sprain made the injection in the ass feel like a mosquito bite.
3) addy did not know he got injected into the ass until the nurse said "i'm injecting the painkiller into your backside and it will hurt!"
4) addy realises now that the back is a really important part of the body. it is incredibly tough to put on your socks or underwear with a bad back!

彩虹

we were probably the two most "ang mo pai" people i know who are most crazy about ktv...

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳还是会绕
没有理由我也能自己走

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白...

Farewell

numb me from all emotion
and set me free
if this is your solution
then i hope you are happy...

the paper chase

if you think that singaporeans are getting more educated and more informed about current affairs, you're probably right..afterall, there is a new sort of paper chase in town and everyone is eligible for it; young and old, smart and not-so-smart, rich and bankrupt, literate and illiterate (yep, that's correct folks..you can now chase paper even if you cannot read or write! wait..make that, even if you cannot read AND write!). this is the "free newspaper" chase (the essential thing here is not so much that it is a "paper chase" but that it is free. thus explaining the slack criteria for "admission")!

in the mornings as i walk up tanjong pagar mrt station to get to the surface, i always watch with amusement as executives in nice office wear and suits mix with the aunties and uncles chasing after the "TODAY" and "My Paper" distributors! just stand back and watch, it is really quite funny - especially the parts when the distributors go back for a "top up" and a whole gang of executives follow in pursuit to the "top up" area (putting the pied piper of hamelin to shame in the process)! but that is the only funny bit about this chase..the sad truth is, though highly educated and some highly paid, these people are mostly not so highly courteous! from the way they grab the papers from the distributors to the way they give demanding stares to get the papers and after all that, not a word of "thank you" or a smile..it is quite a disgrace..and how about those who take more than one copy? i mean, honestly, do you think you become more knowledgeable when you read more copies of the same news from the same paper? maybe that's why it is called "current" affairs, you read it once, the paper become giam chai and the information within disintegrates together with the quality of the paper, so must read a brand new copy to stay "current"! oh yeah, and not forgetting those people-who-make-full-use-of-time, the mrt can be packed to the brim and everyone else is squeezing..but these wonderful people-who-make-full-use-of-time will somehow still have acres of space around them to keep their newspapers wide open, oblivious to the chaos around them!

it is really a shame that as people become more educated, they demand more of others but they forget to give just a little bit back..even something as simple as courtesy. i don't want to sound like i am running a courtesy campaign but the sad fact of the matter is singaporeans are becoming habitually discourteous..meaning a lot of them behave like that, without the intention to actually project themselves that way. in fact, i know of lots of people who are genuinely nice but when put in a "paper chase" situation, they become just like any other ugly singaporean.

coincidentally, some smartie decided to name one of these free newspapers "My Paper" - not his, not hers, not yours..but my, MY MY MY!

Give me My Paper, TODAY, NOW*!

*"NOW", a new free publication by addy for the ugly singaporeans who cannot wait to get their hands on the very latest news, not yesterday's, not this morning's, not even the second that just passed but NOW! Now, is that current or what!

invasion of privacy

it never ceases to amaze me the people who have set foot onto this blog i call, "my blog" (yeah "like..duh!" rite? i thought so too!). the funny thing is, it never quite bothered me if the (few) people who have had the privilege to be damned by me here are actually part of my audience. but if they are, i hope they feel real good about themselves because like i said, they are a real rare breed! this can be seen as an act of real boldness or utter stupidity and truth be told, if i was on the other side of the fence i'd tell myself (which wouldn't really be me because i would have been on the other side of the fence remember?) "adrian your honest and outspoken entries are really bold but reeks of utter stupidity!" which does not really make incredible sense, but then i am not on the other side of the fence now am i? ;)

but whether it is audacity or plain silliness, it is just me to be upfront with my feelings and thoughts. it may ruffle a few feathers sometimes, create a little confusion other times and - if it works in your favour - even make your day..the bottom line is at least you know that whatever i say is really what i am thinking and not for some hidden agenda (or at least, if it was, you wouldn't think of it that way)! if i said that i was absolutely pissed off with someone, you'd know i was really absolutely pissed off with someone. if i said that i found satisfaction in something, you'd know i had really found satisfaction in something. if i said that i met a real cute girl at work whom i asked out for dinner, you'd know i had really met a real cute girl at work whom i asked out for dinner..AND you should also kindly remind me to remove that post so that i do not get into any "confrontations" which may result in further "complications"! :P

so if you are still new to my humble blog, please don't feel like you are invading my space (it actually belongs to blogger.com) or my privacy..because what you read here are things i willingly share and/or want to let out of my system. but if at any time you feel insulted or suddenly realised midway through that you have been anointed one of the "privileged few", please do click that cute little "x" on your top right hand corner and stop reading. if you do choose to carry on, it is at your own discretion and you should do so in a calm and orderly manner. any form of retaliation may result in a report made against you for harassment (don't even ask! it makes the statement sound more important like that!), invasion of privacy and for being such a kaypo!