Through Your Blog.. - addy

i wrote this back in july when there was this big hooha over the bloggers' conference..and some of the better known bloggers were at the end of some pretty mean and meaningless scrutiny by the media..

"through your blog.."

i may not know you
but now i know you well
where once was a peaceful life,
now a tabloid hell
"sellout!", cry your loyal followers
some who turn their backs on you
could it be because you changed focus?
but what else could you do?
"it had to be done", you reasoned
"this is my life.."
and so you should defend yourself
as anyone would when put under the knife
backstabbers, desperate hearts
strangers who proclaim you sweet
disapproving parents, impressionable children
whose expectations do you meet?
but this is your diary
not just anyone's step-by-step guide
while others relate to your words
who really knows you inside?
i don't
i don't know you well at all
but we will find out
when you get up from this fall
through your blog..

addy (26 july 2005)

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Hallelujah - Kathryn Williams

Over the past few months, i realised that i've become "a little" more spiritual than in previous years..it seems like God is part of me in everything i do..even after making racist jokes, it will occur to me "what must God think of me?" and it puts me to shame..but i persist as all "good" human beings do! aside from that, i feel that i have gained in spiritual and mental strength during this period of time..i have learned to be less aggressive, more trusting and less impatient..there is no secret, just four humble words "God give me strength"..i read this in Rick Warren's "The Purpose Driven Life" and it has been my source of inspiration ever since..when i feel down "God give me strength to carry on"..when i encounter impatient drivers on the road "God give me strength to be patient with others and not lose my head"..when others breed mistrust in me "God give me strength to trust others as you have trusted us"..just four words which may seem small but powerful when you truely believe it..i can go on and on but ultimately, it is up to you to try it for yourself..


On a less serious note..the following was extracted off a newspaper report regarding the arrest of three illegal filesharers the past week..by the way, it is supposed to help you better understand the law???

Q. How do I know whether the songs in my computer or MP3 player are legal?

A. If you didn't buy it from a legal site like Soundbuzz, it is probably illegal. Plus, when you buy a CD, the rights only apply to the CD; this means you cannot rip songs out and make them into MP3s for your player.

Generally, it's advisable to check the terms and conditions of use before you make a copy of the songs. -- SOURCE: INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY OFFICE OF SINGAPORE"

You guys have been warned..if you think it's cool to show off your stylo mylo iPod mini on the streets, think again..gahmen says that you can be legally charged for possession of "banned substances"!

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"every breath we drew was Hallelujah..Hallelujah.."

Featured song is taken off the album "Relations" by Kathryn Williams"

Fix You - Coldplay

I think i'm gaining weight..which is incredible! because just last month, no matter what time i weighed (after breakfast, after lunch, after tea break, after eating rubbish etc etc), it seemed that my weight remained stagnant or at times, it even went down! now, you may think that the weighing machine at my office (OSIM leh!) is spoilt..my colleagues think so too actually, cuz no matter what time they weighed themselves, it always seem to go up..so maybe it was spoilt..hmm..well, anyway, i just weighed myself the other day out of boredom and was surprised that my weight went up by more than a kg to thou-shalt-not-mention-thy-weight (it's sensitive!)!! so i was having a mini-celebration with myself and i casually remarked to my colleague in a can-you-actually-believe-it tone that i gained weight! to which he gave me his most i-can't-believe-what-i'm hearing look and said "and what are you so happy about?"!! haha..i couldn't help myself but burst out laughing (i know, i'm a looney at times! =P)..i can understand his reaction though, he is a little on the "heavy" side if you know what i mean! heh..

Anyway, i wonder what has brought on the sudden weight gain..it went up today again man..gosh..the lack of stress? the drinking? the late nights? the lack of sex? wonder wonder wonder..

still wondering..
addy

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"lights will guide you home..and ignite your bones..and i will try to fix you.."

Featured song is taken off the album "X&Y" by Coldplay

A Letter From Dreamland - Parking Lot Pimp

Have been in a rather dazed and confused mood the past week..could it be that there were too many "weekends"? Or could it be because i was one of the only people in this country to work throughout the week? either way, i think i'm still feeling hungover from working on national day..no parade to watch..no fireworks to "wah!" at..the closest thing to fireworks for me on national day was ironically a new drama called "shooting stars"! which ironically (again!) bored me till i was seeing stars..but well, what do you expect from an ou xiang pai show right?

Went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory with alex on the eve of national day..it was like re-living my childhood fantasy of actually seeing the inside of willy wonka's factory! all that chocolate and candy..gosh..anyway, it is a pretty nice show whether or not you've read the roald dahl book so do go catch it!



Last but not least, i've finally clocked time on the dance floor! all thanks (or no thanks??) to maurice (who else!)! anyway, it was pretty fun the first time..or could it be that i was high? hmm..i hope i didn't do any crazy stuff..though i distinctly remember a girl dancing up to me! haha..i think that she's just drunk la..ME leh! cannot be cannot be..

Oh by the way, the cheonging thing happened last friday..so this whole blog has really been going in reverse..now you believe me when i said that i was a little dazed?

over and out!
cheers!
addy

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... ...addy is currently obsessed with Parking Lot Pimp's "A Letter From Dreamland"
"wrote you a letter from dreamland..wish you were here with me man.."

Brightest 2

you were always there for me in my darkest moments, providing me a shining light..like that time when i had surgery, you kept virgil by my bedside like my guardian angel..this even though you had your curfew and SGH wasn't exactly in the most convenient of places..without any complaints, you made your sacrifice in your own quiet yet loving way..and for that i thank you..and for every other moment we have shared..

"thank you"

addy thots.. ..

the whole problem with relationships is that everyone is so busy with couple-y things that they forget the very basic requirement..that is to be a friend to your partner..

now if only i can turn back time..

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... ...addy is currently obsessed with Copeland's "Brightest"
"i just know that she warms my heart/ and knows what all my imperfections are/ and she says that i am the brightest firefly in her jar.."