hahaiha

"you are the most crappy person i know lor..."

"you are damn lame la..."

"only adrian can come up with this..."

"his lameness is super omg-why-the-hell-i-know-you-as-a-friend but still quite entertaining lah..."

"your corny jokes and all..."

"nonsense!"

sometimes when i think about it, i feel happy to bring joy to people..but other times, i just feel like one bladdy stupid clown. is that all i am really good for?

somehow these days, my laughter echoes meaninglessly in my ears, my smile seems surgically implanted and i feel like a downright fake..

i just don't feel so happy anymore...



nobody knows just why we're here
could it be fate or random circumstance
at the right place at the right time two roads intertwine
and if the universe conspired to meld our lives
to make us fuel and fire
then know where ever you will be
so too shall i be

close your eyes dry your tears 'coz when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here
from the sheer weight of your doubts and fears weary heart
you'll be safe here

remember how we laughed until we cried
at the most stupid things like we were so high
but love was all that we were on, we belong
and though the world would never understand
this unlikely union and why it still stands
someday we will be set free. pray and believe

when the light disappears and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream, i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

save your eyes from your tears when everything's unclear
you'll be safe here
from the sheer weight of your doubts and fears wounded heart
when the light disappears and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here
in my arms through the long cold night sleep tight
you'll be safe here
when no one understands i'll believe
you'll be safe,
you'll be safe
you'll be safe here
put your heart in my hands
you'll be safe here

don't ask me for a reason..there is none..
it is just so uncomplicated..
that's the way i like things to be...

jerk!

i know it was in the past..
but i just want to thank you for never holding it against me..
and i'm sorry i ever walked away like i did..

i regret it till today..
i still do...

the reason why...

elise asked me why..

the first time i saw you
it felt like coming home
if i never told you
i just want you to know
you had me from hello...
- bon jovi

sometimes..
the reason is just so uncomplicated...



this is just sooooo sweet! (just watch till the end)

every time i look at you
baby, i see something new
that takes me higher than before
and makes me want you more
i don't wanna sleep tonight
dreamin's just a waste of time
when i look at what my life's been comin' to
i'm all about lovin' you...
- bon jovi

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it's that faraway look which gives me away..
but that's as much as they know...

whose smile?

these days, i smile way too much..my cheeks hurt..

i hate the feeling...

ocean's 13

thursday, 14 june 2007

ocean's thirteen
@ gv marina with chris and susu

ocean's 13 suffers a little from attempting to accomplish too much in a limited amount of time..while the plot is straightforward (revenge), the sheer number of people involved and the sophistication of the plan and execution meant that audiences must keep up or catch up..to add to the complexity, new complications arise throughout and new options get thrown into the mix. the movie also moves in a consistently quick pace meaning you don't really get much of a chance to dwell on previous scenes. despite that, ocean's 13's exquisite sets and cast makes all its shortcomings secondary..i especially loved the comic moments involving brad pitt and matt damon..it's the way they appear so nonchalant even during an awkward or funny moment..damn cool! or could it be that i am easily amused? oh and it's amusing how the opening sequence of the show bears an uncanny resemblance to another brad pitt movie "mr and mrs smith" too! haha..overall, ocean's 13 achieves its purpose as a fun show so do not expect an intellectual or foolproof plot..like su told me when i remarked about how rusty (or russell as she calls brad's character..rusty is the correct name by the way!) managed to walk right into an empty slot machine in the midst of such a crowded casino, "it is a movie"..and so that is the way to watch ocean's 13..

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i slipped and fell this morning (my ass hurts man! already not so much flesh liaoz leh!)..seem to be doing that quite a lot these days (not the hurting of my ass part i am talking about la! doh!)..

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when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day
and make it okay
i miss you...
- avril lavigne

is it so silly to feel this way?

shadow of the day

story of my weekend..

sore throat/blocked ears/blocked nose/fluish..
3 hours badminton session (despite the above)..
2 hours footie session (despite the above above)..
ball in the face/throat (from the above)..
sore cheeks (result of the above)..
back to work tomorrow (despite ALL the above!)...

taking a breath to keep breathing...

friday, 1 june 2007

pirates of the caribbean: at world's end
@ eng wah suntec with chris

it was a last minute decision to catch this and it seemed like we weren't meant to watch it..all the cinemas we checked were mostly fully booked (and i refused to sit anywhere nearer than 6 rows to the screen!)..our last resort was the cinema at suntec city and we had almost the whole cinema to choose our seats from! crazy..

for all its hype, the show was a big letdown..too long, too complicated and too boring..sure it had its lighter moments but those few seconds cannot save this two and half hours of blockbuster from being a blocked-busted..i still want to take johnny depp home though! :P

sorry elise, i pang seh-ed you..but i saved you money hor! :D

saturday, 2 june 2007

shrek 3
@ gv marina with karen

after a bad night with pirates, it was lucky that shrek 3 was much much better..given that it has not much of a storyline (it is a cartoon afterall!) and lots of funny moments were recycled (from previous shrek movies), its cute factor alone was enough to make this a really enjoyable show! nice! :)

sunday-tuesday, 3-5 june 2007
..two day conference in kuala lumpur

..wanted to do so much more
..too little time
..at least it was fun and..

..i finally satisfied my urge for dunkin' donuts! damn shuang..
even brought some back for elise and su! :)

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"not like me"

who is that in the mirror i see?
it feels like i am not like me
a reflection i refuse to acknowledge
a smile that locks me up, like a cage
my tears, they just will not flow
my heart, it just will not glow
a fire, that has been long smothered
my laughter, it is a cold blooded traitor
happy, worriless and carefree
innocent and content, seemingly
cracks deepen beneath the surface
faith that cannot be easily replaced
time will heal, all in good time
how long more before i run out of time?
how long more before i lose sight?
how long more can i sustain this fight?
it feels so right to feel so wronged
in the meantime, the clock ticks on...

addy (07 june 2007)