softie

and i nearly cried..

and i'm ready to take a chance again
ready to put my love on the line with you..
- barry manilow

forever eighteen

had a nice time out last night with ling and leen..for dinner, we went to shashlik restaurant in far east shopping centre where they served russian cuisine..don't be fooled by the "lok kok" exterior of the restaurant or the dimly lit interior or the elderly waiters and waitresses..to get a seat, you have to reserve wan ok! after scrutinising the menu (wondering which ones sounded better!), we ordered the shashlik beef thingy (ling), an ikan fish thingy (leen) and a garlic steak thingy (addy)..while the service is not fantastic (they are not outright rude la..just not very polite) and the portion small, the food was nice and quite reasonably priced..they also had this flaming dessert which was supposedly quite popular but when we last checked, there wasn't anything set on fire that night. oh well.

"lok kok" exterior of shaslik restaurant
fierce looking menu!

thereafter, we went to big-o for dessert cuz yaling was still hungry..i got this mudpie called "the beast"..the banana fudge part is really quite shiok man! though it was a short dinner session, it was a really nice catch up for us three..not that we are some long lost friends la! :P

leen: thanks for the nike bag and the really really cool card! :) you do not look like a maid la!

ling: thanks for the baby blues book! :) why is it somehow familiar eh? haha..

addy: i got myself a new crumpler bag too! :) my "maid"'s recommendation!

but seriously, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for the lovely evening, the presents, your constant encouragement and everything else! it's been a really tough year but it would have been so much tougher without you guys! :)

afterall..

skeptical but hopeful..

flashes of brilliance

yesterday:

1. first birthday greeting from (surprise surprise) shiqin at 1.08am!
whom i've known for years but have hardly met up with! really nice..

2. my dad giving me a shirt from g2000 for a present!
not the best colour..but i really appreciate the effort..

3. seafood at serangoon gardens and then milkshakes at happy days cafe with kenneth and jingxian!
jinx had to postpone her hall meeting just for it as well..thanks babe!

4.

today:

5. clear blue skies
feel like going skydiving

6. release of pulp's john peel sessions
cool!

a decade of music

my most able companion for the past ten odd years..through the easy and difficult times..through my joy and depression..through happiness and sadness..a friend for all seasons..i'm sorry i tattoo-ed you against your will and i'm sorry for making you play backstreet boys, britney spears and the sort..rest in peace my friend..live forever!

now that i'm in the mood, let me just do a brief recollection of my sinful obsession..

1. first cd ever bought:
ukelele greatest hits from bedok central (i threw it away i think!)..for the record, one of the rare cds (the one i remember at least!) still existing in my collection today from that infancy stage is oasis' (what's the story) morning glory?..that, and the backstreet boys' debut album..yes, i still have that too!

2. most frequently listened to genre:
u.k. indie

3. best concert attended so far:
coldplay (and travis) and coldplay (again)!

4. favourite solo artist:
tommy page..yeah i know..sucker..

5. all time favourite song:
oasis - champagne supernova..almost therapeutic effect when put on repeat and play it loud when in a really really lousy mood..inspirational when in a really really good mood..did i mention that it is quite a really really good song? it is you know?

6. most underrated band:
mansun and embrace..they have some really good stuff but i don't think they are given enough credit..if i had to cut it to one, i'd say mansun because i'm listening to them now and they are also less likely to appear on those britband and rock compilations!

7. favourite band:
just a decade and my cd collection has surpassed the millenium mark..from coldplay to radiohead to ash to feeder to oasis to blur to muse to so many others..but the band that still stands out for me is pulp..look out for jarvis' new album due in november!

i could go on and on and on about the music i like but this is basically it in a cd single format with a few extra bonus tracks..

cheers!

---

so this is it..my birthday post..no mushy "thank you"s..no overly ambitious wishes..just an entry on a topic close to heart. that is not to say, i do not appreciate the thoughts and the many birthday greetings i got. i do, but how do you respond to "happy birthday" when you are not truly happy? "thank you"? but friends who have known me a long time will know that i am not person to say things i do not really feel..and somehow sending "thanks but i'm not really happy" just does not cut it either..so instead, i keep my peace and (as we say in church) my peace i give to you. i hope you can understand and i apologise for my rudeness..but that is all you will get from me - an apology. no "thank you"..

bring your sunshine to me
oh electric man..
- mansun
thanks kenneth for last night..i needed that badly..

re-activated

sorry for the inconvenience everyone! apparently my kor was in such a lousy mood last night he scared the server silly! think he male pms man..crazy bugger! anyway, booking lines are now re-opened again! here is the updated booking list..

24 Oct 2006 (tue):
2pm - ? : lunch with cheryl
4pm (estimated) onwards : available slot

25 Oct 2006 (wed):
? - 5pm : available slot
5pm onwards: unavailable

26 Oct 2006 (thu):
8.30pm - 6pm : work
6pm onwards : unavailable (under consideration)

27 Oct 2006 (fri):
8.30pm - 6pm : work
6pm onwards : available slot

28 Oct 2006 (sat):
whole day : available slot (pending confirmation)

29 Oct 2006 (sun):
11am - 12pm: church
4pm - 7pm: footie
7.30 onwards: available slot

* due to "space" limitations, group bookings of 4 and above are highly discouraged.

remember, you can book through email or phone..bookings are on a first come first serve basis and pending approval from the committee (he and me! hehe..)he better behave this time round (as in kor not the server!)..or i'll kick him in the nuts! hmm..then..i won't have my cute little nieces and nephews! -gasp- nevermind, i'll think of elsewhere to kick him..anyway, book now! :)

- addlyn

appeal

please pray for karen's aunt betty who is in hospital, in critical condition..if you do not pray, just make a wish..

wherever i may be

gatekeeper: are you sure about this?
addy: yes.
gatekeeper: won't you be lonely?
addy: already there.
gatekeeper: how about text messages?
addy: depending on how long they are.
gatekeeper: well i don't know..usually 13 letters long with a space in the middle..
addy: that's a pretty unlucky number don't you think?
gatekeeper: i suppose so..but what do you think?
addy: hmm..
gatekeeper: they may mean well you know?
addy: bar them.
gatekeeper: you sure? not even a "thank you"? i could set up an auto-reply service if you want. free of charge.
addy: no..just bar them.
gatekeeper: if you say so.. -makes a note- how about emails?
addy: what about them?
gatekeeper: well some will send it through email.
addy: trash them.
gatekeeper: you can't be serious?
addy: -shrugs-
gatekeeper: ok..you are serious.
addy: most likely. yes.
gatekeeper: ok then..any last request? computer? food? something to read?
addy: some music would be good.
gatekeeper: ok.. -makes another note- just music?
addy: and maybe my penguin.
gatekeeper: -raises eyebrow and makes another note- and?
addy: that's it.
gatekeeper: ok -checks notebook- some music and urm..the penguin.
addy: yep.
gatekeeper: last chance to back out.
addy: -shakes head-
gatekeeper: you don't talk much do you?
addy: -shrugs-
gatekeeper: you are crap.
addy: i know.
gatekeeper: -curses under his breath- ok..you may pass. have a good trip.
addy: yeah whatever.

togetherness

not together..
but feeling together..

together we're invincible

do i attract people easily? am i super approachable when you get to know me? funny, this was what my interviewer told me today..that while most guys go to interviews rigid and stern, i am directly the opposite - friendly and chatty..in fact, she went as far as saying that i was probably one of the most friendly interviewees she has had and would hire me solely based on my character if only..i had showed more keen-ness for an administrative role..

oh well..nice to know that but she probably says that to most of the other interviewees as well..

i went on a shopping spree after that!

1) a new shirt for work (nice and bright and pinky stripey!)
2) a dvd (which i'd probably end up not watching unless someone watches it with me) and
3) four cds

overall, it was a pretty good day and nothing is going to spoil it! yes i am that determined..but hey..it is just three and a half more hours right?

during the struggle they will pull us down
but please, please let's use this chance to turn things around
and tonight we can truly say
together we're invincible
- muse

cheer up!

it's sad to see kor so withdrawn these days..come home only walk straight into the room and close door..talk to him only can get a nod of the head or shake of the head..at best, maybe can get a "okay" out of him..so normal conversation will go something like this..

me: you just got home ar?
kor: -nod head-
me: oorh..how's work?
kor: okay
me: very sian is it?
kor: -nod head-
me: no other job meh?
kor: -shake head-

see what i mean? very hard leh..don't know what's wrong with him also..anyway kor cheer up! yesterday mei mei went shopping for you leh! got you your favourite team's jersey..i don't find it nice at all..quite ugly actually but you like it can liaoz! hehe..and here's another something for you to make you smile!

eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen twenty-seven eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen eighteen
eighteen eighteen
FOREVER
EIGHTEEN!
hehehe..nice nice right? if nice must cheer up k? :)

- addlyn

my big mouth

kor tells me that two people told him today that they were surprised to see him so bad tempered and moody these days..but hor..not surprising to me leh..he at home also always lock himself in the room and don't really talk wat..you mean he very cheery and fun to be with all the time meh? now it is my turn to be surprised ah!

anyway, today is a bad day for me also la..

i told you that i really like you leh..but you didn't reply me..i think that maybe you hate me now..am i really really really not pretty enough?

hai..don't want to talk about it already..sianz..

- addlyn

ken says "nnh"

did you know that when you combine kenneth and his favourite exclamation it sounds reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaallly bad? you try it now..repeat after me..

"ken.. ..nnh"
a bit faster now..
"ken.. nnh"
ok..now say it super fast!
"ken nnh"

so crude rite?? hai..ken ken..why you so vulgar? nabei..teach me such bad things..

- addlyn

she's so fat

just got home..very tired leh..i tell you ar..got this classmate of mine..really irritating..keep snacking and snacking in class..then eat cannot eat quietly..make so much noise..then got so much complaints somemore..ask her for help is like want her life like that..but like what can i do with her life right? keep telling us how she has so much to do and no time to help us..but then during break she always sneak off to buy food or shoes..so fat and still keep eating, no wonder she keeps having to change her sandals and shoes la..i pity them leh..got to take such a weight every day..hai..every day see her also sian..try to close one eye but she too big, still can see her..close both eyes, still can hear her munching and complaining..hoooooooooooooooooooow? so sian leh..heard my kor has someone similar in his workplace..think i will ask him for advice! hehehe..ok..still got my assignments to rush *#&%&!*@($)..talk another time!

- addlyn

you completed me

hello everyone! my kor says that he wants to take a break from blogging so..guess who is the caretaker? -beamz- muahahaha..but i only got the job on one condition..that is that i publish this next poem of his..he said that it was meant for someone special but now that it has no more meaning, it just sounds cheesy..stale cheese he said..but it's quite sweet wat..you read it and see..

"you complete me"

you complete me
in every way
you amaze me
and colour my days
you make me smile
till my cheeks hurt
but it's all worth it
with you as a perk
you give me hope
and i feel alive
my tears freeze
and my fears subside
you're in every thought
and every word i say
it's true, you complete me
in every unimaginable way

addy (17th january 2006)

sweet rite? if i was his gf ar, i think i will swoon over the moon ar..but i'm his sister..and i still think it's sweet! definitely not like smelly stale cheese..

speaking of smelly, i still haven't suan zhang with him for not offering me any goodwood park durian mooncake ar! keep everything for himself and his jinxy..kaoz..what sort of brother rite? really zhong she qing mei mei ar! ok..i should stop suaning him since he is quite down also..kor, so hor do i complete you too? - addlyn

amazing haze

God forgive them..
those ignorant, thoughtless, penniless and brainless people..who turn your grace into haze..

..and it goes something like this..

amazing haze
you're so fucked up
a thousand burning trees

you spoil the air
that we all breathe
please go so that we can live

Amen

untitled

you know what?
i love you


i made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as i'm fading away
i'm sick of this life
i just want to scream
how could this happen to me?

mooncakes

these are delightfully sinful but..
like who cares eh jinxy? ;P

highly recommended for all durian lovers!