isn't it ironic?

friday. the last week has been bad. then again..getting better. but still bad! my grade for international business is still hanging in the air after what? over two weeks now. plus just received two emails from the university today - one a warning mail for failing a module (unjustified!) and another to inform me of the upcoming deferred and supp examinations (even more unjustified!). how do they run the damn place! makes me wonder how i've come to study in such a disorganised environment! the only good thing out of this ordeal is that i get to chat a lot with aeris the new coordinator she's really a sweetie! =P anyway i really hope to get this out of the way so i can get on with the new semester without any other worries!

on the brighter side, i've began running again. everyday in the evenings..well only two days so far but i'm pretty confident i'll be able to maintain it..anything to get out of that hideous workplace of mine!

i've been gorging on ben and jerry's ice cream to kill my depression..i'm into my second tub in 3 days! for those who haven't tried b&j's before and think that hagen daaz is rich..you haven't tried really rich ice cream yet! i've been writing a lot recently, i think it's the depression. for a sneak preview i'll leave you with a few lines..enjoy and have a nice weekend ahead!


..homework was actually due last week
but i couldn't hand it up on a lesson i skipped
now could i? there's still ample time
right now there's too much on my mind..

..throw your joke books and guide books aside
others probably read them as well, so they'd know what's inside
if you want attention, just be you
sometimes the best moments come impromptu..

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cheers!
adrian

oh simple thing where have you gone?

had another match for the church team today..it was a must-win match so that we would ensure ourselves a quater-final place in the tournament..a draw would suffice but that would mean we would have to face the top team in the other group..

but when your team only brought eleven players (the rest being out for all sorts of reasons), the signs were there that it isn't going to be quite your day..from the kick-off, the opponent took control of the game (mind you, they were not that good! not at all..) according to plan, the opponent scored first..we struggled throughout but thankfully we equalised before halftime..second half and we should have won the match, no thanks to me missing two chances - one crossing the line but the referee was too far to judge it, the second just wide of the post with just the keeper to beat..hai..it's times like these that really get to me..depressing..so the game ended 1-1..we can still get a better position if we win our next match but our next opponents are reknown to be one of the toughest in this tournament..and judging from today's performance, it'll take a very long shot for us to get a win out of that one..

as for me..i seriously need to get my confidence and my touch back..both have neglected me since goodness knows when..somehow when i see the ball coming, i always have a phobia which i cannot quite put a finger on..hai..when you're down you're down..and tomorrow and the coming days sure aren't going to make things better..not as i foresee..

has it come to this?

this comes from listening to the streets..check out out the new album "a grand don't come for free" and be inspired! just like i have! =P


has it all come down to this?
us crying our hearts out and being pissed
with each other for not doing a little more
to save this thing we once had before
love, but now a big mistake
stop the blame game for goodness sake!
it takes two hands to clap, two feet to walk
it was by mutual consent lest you forgot
if it was my fault, i accept it
but you were no angel either you have to admit
now there's nothing left to do nor to mention
i left a shirt at your place, but nah that's not important!
it's in your wardrobe in the bottom left drawer by the way
you can keep it though, it was from you anyway!
here, have a tissue, take as many as you need
stop crying so hard, you're wetting my feet
things will be alright in another day or two
i'll be long gone, you may not even remember who
i am or what role in your life i assumed
maybe you'll recall i once spilt cheap perfume
all over you, but that was by accident
but that's just maybe, it sure didn't happen
so this is my breakup poem, i couldn't resist
having a dig at you..has it come to this?

addy (23rd july 2004)


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for everything that has faded away..

the other time when i was out with jasmin, we talked about our blogs and the topic of whether our blog addresses are still relevent to us cropped up.. so the question is "am i still fading away?" the answer kind of popped up in my head just the other day while i was waiting for the mrt - for every moment that passes us by, a little bit of us fades away with that moment.. think of it, you put your finger to dig your nose and just that moment a small boy sees it and laughs loudly attracting everyone's attention to you.. that moment can never be brought back to remedy.. alright, so that may be a little exaggerated but that's the way life goes.. moments of love, joy, anger, loss, victory, confusion, none of them are permanent.. so yes, shifting through times and faded-away is still relevent.. this blog retains bits and pieces of me that have already passed or faded away.. even little details like my signing off name has changed (from addy to adrian).. hmm..which gives me an idea.. perhaps i should ask my younger "sis" to blog here some time in future! -grinz-

anyway the moment has passed for this particular post..time for me to sign off and fade away -winks-

cheers!
adrian

sophie-sticated!

as mentioned in one of my earlier postings, i've been reading sophie's world, a book the author jostein gaarder wrote to teach his class about psychology..well, if you're looking for adventure and mystery, this book may not be your type..the only mysteries here are that of the world and the universe! one part kind of stuck to my mind though and it got me thinking of the relationship between science and religion..this regards the mystery of "which came first - the chicken or the egg?"..but no, i don't wish to investigate that but something similar..

in the Old Testament of the Bible, when God created the world, the first two humans he created were Adam and Eve..ok fair enough..now consider this other part..if the first two humans were indeed Adam and Eve..where does the stone ages and dinosaurs exist? and what happened to the evolution of the monkey into human as the scientists discovered?

i do not wish to question the presence of a God above us but has anyone ever wondered about the validity of the Bible and that the beginning might have been invented by an ancient storyteller? just some food for thought for the weekend!

cheers!
adrian

no alarms and no alcohol please..

maurice just got married (the traditional part that is!) yesterday..i got invited to be one of his "brothers"..considering that i haven't really known him that long, it was a real privilege that he even asked me! =) in the morning, after meeting at his place, we proceeded to the wife's parents' house to "bang door"..the challenges were pretty "normal" - star jumps on the rooftop of the opposite carpark and maurice singing a short verse of "smoke gets in your eyes" across the block!, all 8 brothers kissing maurice on the face and the usual "suan tian ku la" (sour sweet bitter spicy) "food fare"! anyway i thought we kind of got in a little easy in the end..haha..but good for us! =P after that, we went over to maurice's place again for the tea ceremony then back to cecilia's (his wife) for the same thing and buffet lunch..we went our separate ways after lunch but met back in the evening to help out with the wedding dinner..

dinner was at the holiday inn parkview..the brothers were mainly in charged of reception and the ushering of guests..not that we were much help! dinner consisted of the usual 8-course, champagne toasting, photo-taking..and the usual sabo-ing of the bride and groom! the thing i don't understand is, why do friends always want to sabo them on their wedding night and with alcohol?! gosh..both of them looked real sick after the first sabo session..i cannot imagine how they both must be after the second one (if there was, cuz i had left by then!)..i think i've decided after last night's events that there will be no hard liquor, no wine, no beer, no alcohol at my wedding next time! the closest anyone should get to an alcoholic drink is root beer take it or leave it! but of course, i may change my mind when that day gets nearer! =P

last but not least, to maurice and cecilia, here's wishing you two the best of times together and may your lives be filled with bliss, love and much happiness!

cheers!
adrian

it's been a long week..

i am into the fifth day of my mc..one would think that i should and have been enjoying myself the past few days..well, not really (honest!)..my movements have been restricted by my rib injury - any slight pressure exerted on that area causes discomfort..on the brighter side, just learnt from my doctor today that the xrays are alright and there is no fracture -phew-..thinking if i should go play football this sunday..hmm.. -looks at yaling- -gulps- then again..

been playing wheel of fortune with karen on msn a lot lately..she's having holidays now but has to stay home to look after her grandma..pretty even contest between us..though today i just ran over her 4 games to none! -beams-

reading "sophie's world" at the moment to keep myself occupied between semesters..talk about a cheem book! it's interesting but when taken in large dosage, it can be pretty tedious, so i'm just taking one chapter at a time..was tempted to buy marian keyes' "sushi for beginners" walking through kinokuniya but thought better of it..hercules poirot awaits in my book cabinet..think he's balding faster than usual in there! oh, speaking of semester, this is the first sem i scored all distinction and above for all of my assignments! i amaze even myself at times! =P hope the final grades can match up to that level though! -cross fingers-

for those interested, i just updated the links..and anyone who has a better suggestion to replace the horoscope please let me know..firstly i'm not really a believer that stars control one's fate (influenced by sophie's world!) and secondly, it doesn't update itself automatically meaning i have to do it manually, daily! last but not least, thanks to all who have been taking time to leave their comments..

watching spideman 2 later..should be gooooood..

cheers!
god bless!
adrian