Wednesday, April 30, 2003

MesSy MeSSy!

just skipped class..again!

feeling bitter..not better..

feeling confused..weird..

feeling agitated..frustrated..

i'm too emotional..sentimental?

maybe i'm just hungry..haven't ate..

and when a person is hungry..he can't think straight..

gosh!

Tuesday, April 15, 2003

What is Love?

Reminds me of that song by Halloway What is love? Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me, no more... But really, what is love? Sometimes i really have no idea.. Some say love is when you think of someone all the time.. Now frankly speaking, who in their right minds think of their partners 24/7?! I mean, thinking of your partner when you wake up? ok..thinking of your partner as you start the day? ok..having breakfast with your partner? ok..thinking of your partner as you go to digest your breakfast? what the?! thinking of your partner so much that when your boss flares up at you, you tell him "thank you love..i really appreciate it"??!

But seriously now, how often do we think of our loved ones? Honestly, i only REALLY think about them when something goes wrong or something bad happens (touchwood) but all the time? often? We all seem too caught up in this rat race nowadays that when we go to sleep, instead of sms-ing our partners "good night", with the thought of them in mind, we sms them thinking that once the sms has been sent, we can get down to our studies or work or play.. And don't tell me that's not true cuz i'm sure it has happened to the best of us before! So most of the time we end up doing things just for the sake of doing it..

Example :
AD : Why do you go to all that trouble for your girlfriend?
Boy : Just do lor..if not she nag me then my ear drum spoil! I mean, she my girlfriend leh, should do also right? But frankly ar, why she want roses i also don't understand..1 dozen somemore! Make rose syrup better right? Can make so many jugs, can drink, add milk can become bandung somemore!
AD : -dumbfounded-

Ok..so maybe that was just an exaggeration..but it's so true nowadays that most of us just do things blindly, because either we HAVE TO or it's only RIGHT we SHOULD do it.. Then again, our society here promotes such habits.. So many workplaces and schools are like that..

Example :
Boss : Please speak up for the gooooooooood of the company so that we may improove our standards.. remember, everyone of you is unique and your ideas will be much appreciated.. -twitches moustache for effect-
Tom : I would like to suggest blah blah..
Boss : Yeah..but i feel that that has already been rectified by the blah blah blah..
Joan : Boss, I feel that the workers..
Boss : But if the management allow the workers to blah blah blah..THANKS for your suggestion anyway joan.. it is MUCH appreciated!

Sad to say, this is how most companies and schools in singapore function.. it may seem funny but it's damn true.. we always need to improve but other people's ideas always seem poorer than your own.. How else do you explain all the smart replies the Boss in the example had for his supposedly unique employees! As such, we usually just sit like we have been muted during such sessions and the boss or the head will be bladdy happy that everything is alright..

And so, we end up as puppets..puppets to our bosses, our loved ones and even to ourselves.. So where does love come in?

University Student : After i'm done with this assignment..i promise..
Technician : When i'm done with this job..
Boss : When i'm back from the US..
Primary School Student : After i finish this game ok? Nearly the last stage already..

Sadly, as in the words of one of my favourite singers, love won't wait.. not all the time..