i am extremely gratified at the amount of support i have been receiving from everyone at work..but the harsh reality is that i am still very much on my own. it's just like everything has suddenly fallen onto my shoulders and even though work has been allocated..truth is, is anyone else really in full control? you'd have to bribe me with an extremely obscene sum of money for me to give a resounding "yes"! i am starting to pick up the pieces, i am starting to exert myself..and if anyone thinks that i am weak, then they are mistaken and (to quote from ginny) bladdy stupid (she usually just says "stupid" but i added in "bladdy" for good measure)! the hard part though is in having to overcome myself - my emotions, my distractions, my "zoned out" periods et cetera et cetera...
eric is right, this is the time to prove myself, to push beyond my own boundaries and to explore the possibilities..and with the willing help of so many people, i don't see why i cannot make it happen. funnily, jess and sheena both said the same thing to me - that whatever happens, wherever i am and whoever i encounter, they believe that i am someone who will always find my way to make things alright in the end..somehow..
i am thankful..for the people who constantly believe in me..to ginny for making me tough..and to everyone who has made the rough less rough..i am not ready to disappoint anybody yet..just you wait!
wild hogs
it feels like we are slowly nearing our destination but..i keep thinking of making a u-turn at the next junction...