walk on

cheryl asked me today which would i choose, to love or to be loved? initial reaction for me will be "to love" unconditionally and whole-heartedly..but when i think of it..whatever i may say, this answer will change over time in a way or another to "to be loved"..because it is human nature and we are selfish creatures..we take more than we give..and likewise we love almost always in hope of being loved in return..i know i am guilty of that..

i really miss the feeling of pampering someone..even though it might have been lonely shopping alone sometimes..it made me happy to know you would smile when you received whatever i got..whether you liked it or not, that's another matter! you can't do it with friends can you? i mean you can buy your friends stuff once or twice, but if you did that regularly, your friends'd tell you off "i'm not your girlfriend leh! you siao ar?" or think you're being gay (depending on their gender)..i know i'd freak out if a friend kept getting me gifts, nice as it may sound!

hai..i miss the feeling of sneaking a little snuggle and the closeness of a hug..

christmas is coming..i think it is high time to cheer up..even if i cannot attain the stage of "merriness"..though i do not honestly expect to receive any gifts this year..well because i've not been a really good boy that's why!

what would your answer be then? to love or to be loved?

and if the darkness is to keep us apart
and if the daylight feels like it's a long way off
and if your glass heart should crack
and for a second you turn back
oh no be strong..

and i know it aches
how your heart it breaks
you can only take so much
walk on..

you've got to leave it behind..
- u2

snippets

1. my dad's birthday at soup restaurant in changi airport terminal 2
- 12 november 2006


2. no "laughing" matter
- the definition of keke

- commonly used by men who pretend to be cute Japanese children on the internet

Player2: llolz pnwned keke
Player3: omg stop it :((((((

- a vagina, the women's reproductive organ

a girl has a keke and a boy has a peepee.

more definitions on urban dictionary, here!

3. my decision

after much contemplation, i've decided to take up the position with manpower singapore over the one offered by the fullerton. it was tough considering that the fullerton had stronger branding and will definitely make my resume look more impressive. but i made my decision based on the learning opportunities that will be available to me and manpower's potential. whatever it is, i'm determined to make this decision the right one! :)

4. jarvis




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5. dim sum dollies

went for the dim sum dollies on friday evening with karen, maurice and christine. still not as good as the first two installments of the dim sum dollies. the appearance of the parking pontianaks was a real good laugh though! :)

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shifting through boxes
looking through the past
relationships that didn't make it
friendships that did not last
familiar names
but so many lost along the way
letters, christmas cards
they once remembered my birthday
of those who remain
we're no longer that close
the innocence of yesteryears
is but a friendly ghost
words betray us
we were supposed to stick together
but we drifted apart
even in perfect weather
but that's just life
bits and pieces we're left with
and if we retaliate
we lose our belief
every envelope recreates
another street in memory lane
even if i could turn back time
i know, nothing would have changed

AD (14th july 2002)

even though we did not reach forever..thank you for once loving me with all your heart..i promise to you that we will move on..and whatever the future holds, only the future knows..just know this, where so many have failed, we have managed to stick together throughout all this time, as lovers and as friends..and i am always grateful and blessed for your companionship! :)

thank you..

shine on

please don't cry
you know i'm leaving here tonight
before i go i want you to know
that there will always be a light

and if the moon had to runaway
and all the stars didn't wanna play
don't waste the sun on a rainy day
the wind will soon blow it all away, ya

so many times i planned
to be much more than who i am
and if i let you down
i will follow you 'round until you understand

that if the moon had to runaway
and all the stars didn't wanna play
don't waste the sun on a rainy day
the wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya

when the days all feel the same
don't feel the cold or wind or rain
everything will be okay
we will meet again one day
and i will shine on, for everyone
- jet

silent all these years..

from hello friend to affectionate wifey
from a simple goodbye to "will you miss me?"
it all sounds too surreal for it to be true
he didn't believe it and neither should you!
from occasional to nightly talks
but it was difficult getting her out, even for a walk
he wasn't allowed to call her at home
unless of course she was standing by the telephone..

it seems just like yesterday..but it cannot be..
because this happened more than 5 years ago now!
of course, these days she doesn't need to stand by the telephone!
and in case you're wondering, we were still on pagers back then!
yes, that's how long it has been..
how quietly time has flown us by..

can't sleep..

was it always wrong from the start?

move on addy..or you'll get left behind..

but the tears keep on falling..