bittersweet symphony

everyday i have complains..i complain that i have assignments to rush..i complain that i don't have enough money..i complain when my job gets me posted elsewhere..i complain when my legs ache and feel like they are about to give way..but the passing of a friend's dad recently made me realise that i am blessed just to be here..i am lucky that my family still loves me..i am fortunate that my friends are still around me.. ..now everytime i complain i just do it out of the habit to do so! =P

to this friend of mine, i know it's never easy when a close one moves on to another life but i hope she stays strong and may god light her way whenever darkness beckons..

life is a bittersweet experience..behind every bitter moment, comes the sweet..bear with the bitterness and treasure the sweetness of life..god bless!

stay adored!
cheers!
addy

reunion!

yesterday's annual cny gathering (despite numerous "no replies" and "non-appearances"!) was quite a success..though i must say there was nothing successful about me losing almost 30 bukceroos at blackjack!! i know "certain" people will beg to differ though! =P

but what's most satisfying is the re-appearance of our dear friend and my partner in crime in so many #tkgs outings before, sam the man..the fat man that is! =P it's been so long since we last met up but yet the chemistry is still there..i guess great partnerships are hard to put down eh sam? haha.. (jingxian..you left too early my girl!) to think that at 2pm i gave up on him even making an appearance! heh..but well..he did collect an "appearance fee" of around 30 bucks in the end!

anyway, like i said, this will be the last time i tried to organise a large gathering..but as it turned out it wasn't much of a "large" one in the end! despite all the "rejection", all the fuss my mum and i had to go through (more of her credit really!! so THANKS MUM!) and not to mention all the money i have lost two years in a row (especially to a particular person who doesn't know how to play blackjack!!)..this cny gathering was more special in the sense that in spite of our seemingly growing distances throughout the year, there is just this one day which we can all still come together and remember the good old days..and i say cheers to that..

lastly, i would like to say a big thank you to everyone who made an appearance..it couldn't have been the same without you guys!

and as for next year..well.. ...urm..maybe.. just maybe..

i am..
addy

last one?

2nd February, Monday..please take note is the (annual??) chinese new year gathering at my place..as usual, lunch and angbaos will be provided for! (not by me!) =P

i'm getting quite tired (not to mention lazy!) of organising this every year..sending out the invitations is the easy part, the worst part is when people start asking me who else is coming before making their decision! if everyone was like that, no one will come! anyway, hopefully (or not) this will be the last time i'm holding this gathering (does it seem like i've repeated this many times before?? hmm..) ..or at least, one consisting of such a large group of people..and besides, aren't you guys sick of my house already?!

for those who do not know yet, i've moved house already so please do not arrive at my old place in jalan damai trying to surprise me (you'd probably surprise yourself!)! =P email or sms me for my new address..hope to see you guys then! if the turnout's good, who knows..maybe i'll save the "last time" for another year!

stay adored!
and may one and all enjoy a prosperous year of the moneky!

cheers!
addy

christmas at karen's place

make it good!

2004..another year gone..am i the only one or are there others out there who have wondered about what they have accomplished the past year and come short? well, wasted may not exactly be the word..the every day learning process is always there..i've learnt how to drag myself to class (well, at least for half the class which is an improvement!! -dignified look-) i've learnt that the tap at Sakae Sushi is for their hot drinks (thanks or no thanks to the ling!! -blushes-) i've changed the way i behave here and there - the way i talk, the way i drive, the way i look at others..as you can see, i've accomplished quite a fair bit in 2003..but none of radical significance..but maybe that's the way it always would be, just like a business doesn't make a profit overnight (unless the owner suddenly struck lottery!!), life is all about taking slow and steady steps with the occasional trips and slips and some parts where we have to take a leap..

one thing rather sad is that with each passing year, more and more friends are becoming in a sense more "inaccessible" (including myself!)..we are always more busy with other things..our studies, our hobbies, our obsessions..and when i think about it now, would it really hurt to put aside a few hours for our friends? sad but true, but at least countdown was special this year with karen..not only because the fireworks display was simply gorgeous..not because the "school of rock" rocked!..and not because for once i appreciated the other races for what they are..but because of a little sacrifice she made for me..thanks darling..it made everything even more special! =)

the only thing (or people) missing perhaps was that the usual suspects were not there to bask in the moment with us, kenneth, yaling, xinyi, roland, raymond, jessica..to you guys, i say i miss you guys lots and i really wished you were there!

lastly, i haven't got any new year's resolutions this year..now you may ask what's the use of resolutions when more than half of the people you know who make them usually do not keep them? well, i've thought about that and my answer is simply: if you do not make them, you are not even trying..it may be something as trivial as wanting to change your dress sense or getting a new hair cut..but a new year's resolution stands for something deeper, it is something you have wanted to do but have not found enough reason or guts enough to do..sure, we may not accomplish them, but at least let us not not accomplish them for the lack of trying!

to all (if anyone still reads this blog!!), i wish you a wonderful and blessed 2004 ahead! =)

stay adored! cheers!